This Is It

Her

For the next three months I dated that green eyed girl. It had it's ups and downs, but overall I wasn't upset. I'm not gonna lie, I wasn't all that happy, but I wasn't horrible either. I was used to all the lies and complaining. I was getting used to it, I was getting used to the different. She was amazing in some ways and not so amazing in others. I'm not going to get into it, it doesn't matter all that much. But after that three months, the big break up happened. Everything was going smoothly until one week she wouldn't talk to me. No contact nothing, and what was I supposed to think. I was left open to infer. So we broke up, it was messy and sad. But I got over her quickly. All that was left of her was memories and smiles.

Health started and she tried to talk to me. I was upset, I missed the perfect I thought I had with her, I missed the same old routine. But I had moved on, my heart didn't trust her and neither did my brain. You can't be with someone you don't trust, why would you anyways? It got to the point where she told me she was moving and I didn't even believe her. Yet, I took her back.

But, there was somebody else that had caught my eye. A girl that I had liked since 9th grade year, she suddenly showed back up again. And there started the butterflys and daydreams. The long chats and reassuring talks. I would talk to her constantly and she would talk to me constantly. I thought she was funny, cute, caring. She was everything I wanted and more. But I hurt her, I fell for her and acted on that. Until I got scared and ran away, back to my known and hurt the blue haired girl. But suddenly I realized that I was more happy with her, not with my known, not with what I was used to.

So I left, and I went for what I actually wanted, no matter how scared I actually was. I got to know the adorable, brunette haired girl better and she suddenly wanted to get to know me too. We were inseperable, always talking, always together. Just the way I wanted it to be.