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He looks so fragile.

February 20,2017

Hi Baby Gil😭
this is not for you. I am talking to the picture, you freak!

I took this photo kaninang umaga. Yeah malabo. Pssshh don't mind it.Around 11 am ata.As you can see, yan si Jurie Gil. I like calling him Gil but nagagalit siya. Di naman ako kumportableng tawagin siya ng Jurie, ang haba kasi. Nakakatamad.
Pero mahal ko yung mokong na yan. Isa syang nakababatang kapatid para sa kin. I like teasing him kasi pikunin.

I consider him as one of my bestfriends. Though bago lang kami naging close. But I feel happy knowing na comfortable akong kasama siya. With Baron,we giggle, we laugh at our own jokes,we hurt each other physically,(but that's how we show our love for one another)we eat together, we walk together, we cheat, we do funny sh*ts, we talk about sexy stuffs and laugh at it, laugh about nothing,we make gala gala, make lame jokes,naghaharutan and other stuffs na with real friends mo lang magagawa.Walang malisya bes. Nakakaloka. Last week lang kami na concious about physical contacts with anyone. Especially when we are with our opposite sex. Medyo nalayo nun ang closeness namin. Chesa tagalog ang lola mo. But ewan, di namin mapigilang mag-akbayan, hug, and touch(kaloka ano iniisip mo?) I don't care, I love it.

Plus, I'm hoping na sana ganon rin ang nafifeel nila towards one another. Like we are siblings, like megabestfriends, buddies hahaha oa ko.

Sayang nga kasi last year na namin na magkakasama. Mag gegrade 11 na kasi kami. Konti nalang ang oras naming magkakasama. Napamahal na ako sa kanilang dalawa ni Baron. Kakornihan ni Ate mo.

Actually di rin kasi pinagkaitan si Jurie ng itsura eh. Kaso may topak din 'to. Matalino rin naman sya. Despite the fact na naging ultimate crush ko siya dati. Luuuh kagagahan.To the point na uuuugh nevermind. But wala na naman na na akong romantic chuchuness na nafi-feel towards him na. Hahaha I'm lucky to have him. ooops erase that. I'm lucky to have a friend like him. At shhh may Thrisna na yan 😋 Shipper nga ako ng dalawang yun 😄😂♥

I don't know why pero I want to take back every lies I said to him kanina.
Umalis kasi sila nina Cheska at Emma to eat outside.
He unconciously left his phone sa table and Baron saw it. It was too late to give it to him kasi malamang otw na sila sa wherever na pupuntahan nila.

Pinagsisisihan ko ang kagagahang nangyari kanina. Dagdag pa dun ang mastermind ng problema. Si Baron. I'm not mad at him. But I really felt sorry for Jurie. As iiiiin grabeeeee. Di ko alam ba't ako naging kasabwat. Maybe because I was jealous or maybe it was just for fun. Di naman namin aakalaing aabot sa point na babalik sya all the way from our school papunta dun sa kinainan nila just to look for his phone. He even borrowed our school director's phone just to contact his phone.

I tried my best to hide my laughter but my inner self betrayed me. Why? conscience. Buti nalang at nandon si Damon. Ayokong magalit siya sa kin. Actually, I did not hide it. Baron did. I stayed silent while he was panicking there. Baron was secretly convincing me to give it to him na. Di ko alam kung anong nagdala sa kin na gawin yon. Na Jurie deserves it. Jurie was praying that his phone isn't lost. He asked me uncountable times if I really did not hide it. Of course I did not so I told him I did not! duuuh. I want to take back every lies, every mistakes and ugh why am I so corny? Whatever this feeling is, I don't think maganda 'to. Whatever.

Then Damon gave up, I stayed silent.
Nagalit si Jurie sa akin. He was with Cheska and Emma. Ayaw kong magsinungaling in front of them. Especially with Emma. I like Emma kasi. I don't know why. wew. In a friendly way! mga pwet! 😝😜

Feeling ko mawawala na ang tiwala sa 'kin ni Jurie. Kaya I tried my best not to be bad. 😅

Then yun nagkasagutan kami. Nagtaasan ang mga boses. Teacher stopped us. I remained silent. I got mad at him. Then he blamed me and I gave up easily then I said I hate him. He replied, "wow sya pa may ganang magalit". Napikon na kasi ako. Bakit ako sumasalo lahat ng blame? Shame rin kasi nagmukha talaga akong sinungaling don. Psshhh. I helped Kael clean the room for the preparation para sa bible quiz. First batch was from grades 1-3. I was the one who collected the papers and I can see his stares. Parang mangangain. Gustong gusto kong magsorry sa kanya. But feeling ko maliit na bagay. And may naghihinder sa 'kin na gawin yon; pride. Pero kadalasan, sanay akong ako yung unang nagsosorry. Ito kasing si Jurie, kabaliktaran eh. Ayon, turn na namin sa quiz bee. I tried everything to have a conversation with him. Successful naman ata kasi sumasagot naman siya. Palamangan ng scores at lumalamang si Emma. I cheered for him. I really want him to win. Para makabawi hahaha. But natapos yun na si Emma ang 1st then sya ang 2nd at panglast naman kami ni Izkal.
Nasa church na ako at nakita ko sya don. I was eating polvoron kanina and wanted to give him some. Peace offering. But malapit na ako sa kanya ng naisipan kong " peace offering my ass" then nilampasan ko lang siya at sumakay na ng tricycle. While nasa jeep pauwi, nakunsensya na talaga ako at binabaan ang pride ko. Maliit na bagay nga lang pero tinitake ko kasi halos lahat seriously. Kaya ayon. Tinext ko sya at nagsorry. I can't say it to his face. Damn that boy is hard to please. I waited for his reply at yeah. Nothing happened. I'm lying in my bed. Nilalamok. Hoping na magkakaayos na kami bukas. Ayaw ko kasing may nagagalit sa kin especially if ka close ko. I wanna stay in touch. Alam ko kasing friendly ako. At whenever I get into fights, ako talaga ang nagwoworry. Night.

Plus, naalala kong nagrequest syang drawingan ko sya ng chapter 9 and 10 ng El Filibusterismo. Nakakatamad. Knowing na hindi nya maaappreciate ang gagawin ko. Plus wala man lang nga akong nakitang joy nung nakita nya yung ginawa kong cover. Matutulog nalang ako. Tutal, maliit na bagay. Bye

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JHOPED <3