Remember

The room of the Psychiatric hospital

My teeth chattered unceasingly and I couldn't stop them.

As I lay there in this pitiful excuse of a bed and watched out the small round window as young and old people were rushing in and out. Slowly as I move my head towards the patients and take in their appearance, when a sudden loud piercing scream catches my attentions and quickly I turn my head to where the sound of the scream came from and there a young teenage girl laid on a small white bed. I tilted my head to the side as i fixed my gaze on the young teenage girl and took in her appearance. She had on a worn out grey gown, which was very much like the one I'm wearing.

At that moment for the first time since I've been here I looked down at the outfit I had on and began to to think of how and when was I dressed in this gown, and by whom. I slowly began to lose myself in my own thoughts, as I was beginning to connect some dots of my arrival to this place but that didn't last long as my train of thoughts were cut short by the sounds of another piercing scream coming out of the mouth of the young teenage girl. My eyes widen as the tears sprung from her lifeless blue eyes that had seemed to have lost their inner expression long ago, the colours she wore were grey and washed out as she was, the pain was seen clearly in her eyes as three large men strapped her little body down to the bed while another man aggressively injected her, she began to violently shake for a few minutes and stopped, As her body remained stiff and unmoving.

I watched in horror as they dragged her body away into a dark mysterious room, just as i got up from the bed and ran to the small round window to get a sneak a peek the large door was quickly pulled shut.  I stood by the window as a few hours went by, the door still remains shut. I paced around the room thinking of what they could possibly be doing to her in that room. As my mind continued to wonder the lights of the hospital were shut off and there I was met with darkness and silence once again. Finally sighing and realising that it wont be opened anytime soon I turn to head back to my bed but was stopped-dead, right in my tracks as another scream coming from the next room but this time the screams had echoed loudly throughout the hallways.

I immediately placed my big rough hands, that have a few nicks and scars, to my ears as i tried to block out the sound of the scream. While doing so I quickly walked back to my bed and laid down but as quickly as i did that a thought of some night it wasn't clear as bit of images of a camp, soldiers and young boys stripped naked standing in a rows came back to my mind so strongly, that fear overtook me once more and my heart beat so fast, I could hardly catch my breath. As I rose from the bed, looking around in the still darkened room of the ward, I found myself  looking around me, as though I half expected the soldiers from my memory to come through the doors and grab me once again, once more my heart thumped so hard within my chest, it felt like painful waves thrashing up against the walls of my chest.