Selfish • g.d • Amnesia #2

Splat

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" I close my eyes wishing for everything to just go away."

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I wake up to see Grayson's eyes all red and puffy. As he lays on the coach in the hospital room.
As I sit there I begin to take in what had happened. I look around again. I then look back at Grayson to see him wide eyed at me. He stared into my soul as I begin to feel some sort of hate in him.

"Back the fuck up.." I say to him.

He continues to look into my eyes. He seems as if he wants to kill me right there.

"You said you wouldn't leave me..."

"I am about to.. your a fucking psychopath!"

He stares at me in silence. I dont pay attention to anything else but him.

All of the sudden something straps to my arm. I panic to see him strap something to my left arm. I pull my right arm out to undo it but as i am about to unstrap it he grabs my arm and pulls it down.

He then says, "If I can't be with you... Nobody can..." All of the sudden he grabs an airtank and connects my IV to it. I begin to panic and try to get the IV out of my arm. I shake my arm ignoring the pain coming from the moving IV. I watch him as he slowly turns up the air. I watch it as the water in the IV moves closer and closer to my body, knowing that the air is pushing it out. Grayson than gets up and walks over to his bag and pulls out a bottle of rat poising. My eyes grow big as he chugs it. He looses his balance and then regains it. I walks over to me and says,

"If I can't be with you nobody can Rain." My eyes begin to swell up as I see the air getting closer.

Grayson gets on my knees and puts his head on my legs. I begin screaming and he lightly whispers, "Shhhh, just let it happen. We can be together forever." As his chest lays on my leg I feel his heart beat slowly go down. As it slowly fades and I continue to scream. The air was about to enter my veins, i didn't want to die. I wanted to be with the girls. I loved them so much, I couldn't loose them. And how will the rest of my family feel about me dying?

I lay there knowing I couldn't do anything about how I was going to die. I begun to lay my head and started crying, replaying all of the memories I had with my friends.

Right as a little bit of air enters my body, the door swings open and a nurse sees whats going on rushing to my aid. She quickly undoes the airtank and I look at her as if she was my savior.

Right as she sees my face shes drops to her knees crying. She cried for a good two minutes and im sitting there crying and also in the dark on why she was crying.

She then stops crying and looks up at me and says,

"I'm so sorry for crying, you just reminded me of my daughter and how I wouldn't let her be with her crazy boyfriend and they killed themselves to be together. I saw the air tank and took action. Honey never kill yourself for a boy, thats the worst you could do..."

As I was about to say that Grayson was the one trying to kill me she sees Grayson's body laying there and hurries to him. I completely forgot he was there. God am I an asshole. She hits a button on the wall adn then a ton of nurses ran in. One finally untied me as I sat there in trying to take everything in.

Soon some people come in wisking Grayson away. As I sit there in silence. Letting my mind take over. Not knowing what to do. I don't know if I should be relieved or depressed that hes gone. I just wish everything could just go away. I hate knowing that he died for me. But all he ever did was hurt me.

The last nurse finally leaves as I still sit there in my thoughts. I stare at the window. Loosing myself more and more.

I get up and walk to the window, opening it up. I take in the cool breeze. It reminded me of when I got in the car accident, letting my hair slowly flow in the wind. I close my eyes wishing for everything to just go away.
I stand up letting the wind take my body. I listen as I hear the wind call me. Whispering into my ears, "it'll be ok."  "Just let go." As I wobble to the feeling of he wind.
I stand there in silence and a nurse burst in.
She scares me and I lose my balance. As I fall out the window.
FALLING...
falling...
falling....
and falling...

Till splat.