Suppressed: A Short Story of Love and Lust

Suppressed VI

Because of what kuya discovered about my secrets tuluyan na nga siyang nagkaroon ng alas para gamitin ako, by that I mean sexually. Ilang beses naulit ang paggamit niya sa akin simula nung una (refer to Suppressed Part 1), kahit nakarating na sila mom galing Singapore ay di yun naging rason para tigilan niya na ako. Kuya Rock's totally became a monster. I even suspected him of using illegal drugs. Iniiwasan ko na siya sa bahay but we have to act cool pag nandiyan si mom and daddy Arv. Gusto ko ng magsumbong pero natatakot ako sa magiging reaction nila. Kaya I chose to be silent.

One time I had the courage to confront kuya. I planned of asking him to delete the video he took when he was doing me. It was his greatest card na kayang sumira ng relasyon namin ni Lance, which I feared so much.

"Kuya Rock please i'm begging you, delete the video. Please kuya maawa ka naman sa akin" ... Nakaluhod ako sa harap ni kuya inside his room.

"Why would I do that?"

"That will cause us bad kuya hindi lang ako kundi pati ikaw pag kumalat ang video na yan! Masisira ka din dahil ikaw ang kasama ko at pwede ko yang gamiting ebidensya laban sayo" ... I told him. I thought eepekto sakanya ang pananakot ko na yun, I was wrong.

"Are you dumb Zen? You think i'd risk myself sa video na yun? Ofcourse no silly! Hindi clear ang mukha ko dun. If so, I can edit and censor my face there. Hahaha" ... This fcker! Wala na akong pag-asa.

"But please kuya. Ako ang masisira! Magagalit sa akin si Lance! He'll leave me"

"Hah! I don't give a damn about you and your boyfriend"

"Please kuya i'm begging you" ... I begged and went back to kneeling.

Tinitigan niya lang ako at napangisi siya. Doon pa lang alam ko ng may mangyayari na naman. Hindi ba siya napapagod o nagsasawa?

"Ok. But in one condition Zen" ... He said while slowly unbelting, unbuttoning and unzipping his pants. He pulled out his semi-erected dick from his underwear and pointed it at me.

Because of the result of this condition which is in favor of me, I have to give up to what he wants to happen. I held his dick, opened my mouth and started worshipping his tool. I was helpless. I was dirty. I felt like a trash. Is this my karma for lying to mom? For spending her money on useless things? Mom forgive me. God forgive me.

After he cummed and made me swallow his juice. He went on in his bed and took his laptop, showed me a file, it was our video. He deleted it. I sighed. I felt relieved. I left his room without saying a word. Ano gusto niya magpasalamat ako?

But ...

Little did I know, the video has more than one copy. Ang tanga ko! Ang bobo ko! Di ko yun naisip. From thereon di na talaga ako lumapit sakanya. Kay Lance na ako almost nag stay. Mom didn't question it, she was totally clueless of what's happening. Okay lang sakanya yung pag-stay ko sa unit ni Lance. Sanay naman daw siya na wala ako sa bahay basta it doesn't affect my studies which I reassured to her na di na ako babagsak. Pero nandun pa rin yung takot ko na i-reveal ni kuya yung iba kong secrets kay mom. Preggy pa naman si mom. I hope kuya sees that side as well at piliing manahimik na muna while mom's still in her sensitive period. Come what may.

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I woke up at 6:20 am, naramdaman kong masakit ang katawan ko. But it didn't stop me from getting up from bed. I picked up my pants and wore it, ang shirt na gamit ko kahapon ay unwearable na dahil pinunit yun ni Lance kagabi. What happened last night marked something in me.