Paperwork, Pens, and Hearts (Saix x Reader)

Paperwork, Pens, and Hearts

      It was a typical day in the World that Never Was. Majority of the people were out on missions, and some where lousing around in the break room. Me? I was in the kitchen area at the table doing paperwork. Why was I the only one doing paperwork? Axel, Demyx, Xaldin, Larxene, and Marluxia get to hang out, and I don't. I don't see why that is fair. As I was rambling away, I didn't notice that Saix was behind me with his hand on my shoulder.
      "(y/n)? Are you having trouble filling that out?"

      Saix asked with a concerned look on his face.

      Saix really cared about me than he did the other members. Even though we didn't have hearts, we both still cared for each other. Though, there is something that he didn't know. I had deeper feelings for him. Deep down, in my chest, there was that feeling of love. I knew it was love, and even though we don't have hearts, there is still a way to love another person. You don't have to have a heart. You have to have a brain. You have to know when you love someone. And I really do love Saix. Though, I am afraid to come forth with my feelings. I'm afraid that he will reject me.
      I shake my head no as I look up at him, "No, I'm fine. I promise." A light blush spreads over my face as I look away and at the paperwork.
      Saix sighs and chuckles under his breath as he sits beside me, "Here let me help you with that." He takes half of the paperwork and reaches for one of my pens.
      Now let me tell you about my pens. I label them, and the way that I labeled them this time is with each member's name. And he had to pick up the midnight blue pen. The one with his name. And on his pen, I put a heart beside his name.
      My blush deepens as I begin to fill out the papers. When I am filling them out, I look over out the corner of my eye and see that he had a deep blush on his face as he stares at the pen.
      "(y/n)...?" He looks over to me. I look over at him, "Yes Saix?" I'm blushing and so is he.
      He looks deep into my eyes, "Why is my pen the only one with a heart...?"
      I look away, "I-I don't know."
      Right as I say that, Marluxia and Larxene walk into the kitchen to see Saix and me blushing, and him holding the pen with the heart.
      Marluxia interrupts, "Oh my! Look Larxene! (y/n) is finally confesing her feelings towards Saix!" He giggles.
      Widening his eyes, Saix looks at me in shock.
      How could Marluxia just say that?! Now he knows!
      I blush deeply as I get up quickly from my chair, "Thanks Marluxia for basically just telling him that when I didn't want him to know!" I run to my room as fast as I can.

~~~ Later ~~~     

     I was laying on my purple bed covers, face in pillows, crying more than I could ever imagine. Why am I crying? I don't have a heart. How can I feel? I just do. I don't know why, but I do. My life is ruined now, if I can even say that. After a few minutes go by, I hear a light knock at the door.

     "Yes?" I say through tears. Someone opens the door and walks in. I sit up and see that it was the one and only Saix. I frown as I look away and sit with my back to him. He walks over and sits beside me. When he does, he does the unthinkable.

He wraps his arms around me.

      The warmth that I feel right now is unbelievable. And the emotion that is swelling in the hole in my chest is overwhelming. I have never felt this feeling before. But the thing that overwhelmed me the most is that he was actually hugging me. Was he only doing this because I was upset? Or was he doing this because he cared more than I thought?
      He leans back after releasing me and places his hand onto my tear stained cheek. He rubs a running tear off as he looks into my eyes like earlier.
      "(y/n)..." He trails off and looks away.
      This is different of Saix. He never trails off like that. Nor does he look away. He is always straightforward.
      "Yes Saix...?" I look at him in curiosity as he looks back at me.
      "Is what Marluxia said true? That you have said 'feelings' for me?" He looks deeper into my eyes than he did earlier, but there is something there...Something that was never there before. And something was wrong with his lips too.
     

Was that a tear...And a smile?

      I look at him with concern as he smiles and starts to cry, "Saix? Are you alright? You're crying...and smiling." I get closer to his face.
      He tucks his hair behind his ear and blushes lightly, "I just never thought that you would have feelings for me...Like the ones that I have for you.." He trails off again and looks outside the window.
      My eyes widen as I blush. He has feelings for me too? I wasn't believing what my ears were hearing. Saix is a stern, and most of the time, a monotone person, but for him to confess? This couldn't be true.
      I look up to see him looking at me, wanting me to reply, "You actually like me..?" I asked.
"I know it might be hard to believe or even feel because of the fact that we don't have hearts, but I know it in my mind that I love you, and I now know that you feel the same towards me. So may I ask you a question?" He looks at me in a serious manner.
      I look him in the eyes and nod. He continues, "Will you be mine...?" He looks in the other direction while I register the question in my mind.
Once again, I couldn't believe this. He actually did care, and he did want to be with me. How could I not say no?
      A giant smile spreads across my face as I lean over and hug him, "Of course I will." I hold him close for a few seconds. His grip on me tightens as he smiles. He lets go,"(y/n)...I love you."
      I smile, "I love you too"
      In the mist of this all, we didn't notice that Saix had left the door open. Everyone who was off today, including Superior, was at the door watching all of this. And at the moment, Demyx had to stumble and fall onto the floor, causing Saix and me to snap our heads in the direction of everyone at the door. I blush deeply and so does he as we both look away.
      Superior speaks, "Well...Looks like Number VII and Number (y/#) have finally kicked it off. I was wondering when it was going to happen. And Saix you are correct. Even though you may not have a heart, you can still love someone by knowing that you do. Any who, we will leave you two be now..." They leave and close the door. I look at Saix and giggle. "I wonder how long they shipped us..."
      He shrugs his shoulders and lays down on the bed, "I don't know, but they need to stay out of other people's business.." He raises up his arm for me to lay beside him.
      I crawl over to him and cuddle next to him as I pull up the covers. I can get used to this side of him.
      When I am finally cuddled up to him, I look up at him, "I love you Saix.."
      "I love you too (y/n). " He smiles.
      I am about to go to sleep when I then remember, "Hey Saix, what about the paperwork?"
      "Ah forget it...Oh and I wrote something on your pen.." He says before he goes to sleep.
      I smile and drift off to sleep too.

~~~ Later ~~~

      Marluxia and Superior walk into the kitchen to find all of the paperwork on the table along with my pens. They both walk up to the table and pick up a midnight purple pen.

This pen had my name on it.

And a midnight blue heart.