I feel every bit of pain in my heart and yet I remeber the times that when our parents would leave and not come home until late at night we would be running around in the street me trying to proove that i am fast than you and I did then after we would run in the back on the trail at night. But somethings you have to put aside because you can not do the things you want now you must hold them for the future and hope that the feeling you had back then stayed. For now we must move on even if we do not want to afraid of every thought you have while she is gone like " what if something happend to her?" or something like "does she see me the same as before?" questions like these hurt me and all i can do is just ignore it no while understand the pain I go through except that one person. When that person reads this yea she would be upset but at the same time she would be smiling because that person knows that I am not the best at things like this. Actually a couple peple would laugh because they never seen this side of me in reality I look like I play around to much and socially awkward but in my head its like a storm just thinking and asking questions. All I can say right now is just remember me in the future because my feelings for you will never change even though your the opposite of what I am...
