Life and Quote

My childhood friend

Dreams can be bizarre,scary,peaceful,crazy,and romantic sometimes. But no matter how my dream turn out to be,I don't mind. As long as I can escape from reality,I don't mind. Have you ever get that feeling before? The feeling that you could just drown deep inside your dream and never wake up again? Have you ever want to disappear from this cruel world we're living in? Have you ever feel guilty for being alive? Well,I have.

When I was little,I have nobody to play with. They always think I'm weird because I'm a otaku. Yes,it felt very lonely that time. I don't go home complaining to my parent like every children should because I have a heart like that's like an adult. I would sometimes cry alone. They never knew how I feel maybe because they only cared about themselves,their futures,and their reputation..... No one noticed my tears,my sadness,and my pains,but they all notice my mistakes. I feel like music,Kpop,anime,manga,and art is the only thing I have in this world but then I met someone,someone special,someone who truly understand me! He's my childhood friend. His name is Zelo and he's also a otaku. It's funny at that time because when we were little,he's really popular around girls,kids that time.

But Zelo wasn't the only and first person who truly understands me. There was somebody else. She's my best friend. I wouldn't say best friend forever because she haven't been by my side forever. Her name is Mai. She's really nice and she would stay by my side whenever I felt loneliness and was left out. She was also very popular and I was kind of jealous but I try not to ruined our friendship. One day she suddenly said she's going going to transfer to another school. I was really surprised. I don't know what i would do without her,I'm scared I will be my old self again. I convinced her to stay but she refused. I didn't get to greet her a farewell because we fought that time. It was my fault and my mistake to have started that fought. I really regret what I have done. If only I can have time machine and go back in time,I'll properly greet her a good farewell instead of us ignoring each other. I guess I was just too angry because she transfers that time. Summer came along and when school starts again,she disappeared. That time I realized that I'm going to return to the old me again. It was too greedy of me to do that.

However Zelo also have to moved away. I try not to make the same mistake again so I smiled at him and greet him a farewell. I told him that I'm also going to transfer to another school. He looked kind of down that time. I think I overdid it. I apologize to him but then he hugged me. I think I didn't do the same mistake again. This time,it was a success. He told me to download a app called Kakao Talk so we could to text to each other. I remember I cried a lot when he moved away but he give me a necklace to remember him by. I try to be confident and makes new friends but what I did not realized is that I'm being bullied. I was being bullied throughout middle school. A girl name Saki was the main one who wanted to make my life miserable. In fact I did not let her get in my way. I would always fight back but I guess she was so pissed she try to get me in trouble so I was expelled from school. My mother was so angry she moved to Seoul and she said she wouldn't buy me a new phone this time. Actually,my phone was already broken