Chat Dates (T. Alderweireld)

True Love?

Marine has taken me to a old French café just around the corner from the house. It was cosy and homely and it smelled of fresh coffee which is the best smell in the morning. I ordered a simple coffee while Marine ordered some weird herbal tea. We sat near the back of the café in silence until Marine broke it.

"So what's going on with you and Toby?" I looked up from my phone to stare at her with surprise. I quickly recovered with a cough. "Erm... We just had a few dates and that...What do you want to know?"

"Just a few dates? How do you feel with him? Like what's it like to be with him?" She askes with wonder on her mind. I start to think of her questions in depth. How do I feel with Toby? I start to think out loud so Marine can hear my thoughts on him

"When I'm with Toby, I feel safe. I feel like I can trust with him with everything about my life. What I feel with Toby I never felt with anyone not even with Jerome." I said as she listens contently at me. "What do you like about him?"

"I like how Toby looks like he can kill someone but really he's a sweet heart and won't even hurt a fly. I love how he loves his family even in a different country and he hardly even sees them but that's also upsetting. I love his tattoos I love how I can trace them when I am nervous and need to calm down and I love how he lets me. I love the fact that he's always warm, it's a contrast from me when we hug and I love it."

Marine looked shocked at what I said but smiled. "I understand where you're coming from. Not the whole love Toby thing but the feeling I got it with Hugo."

"I never got the full story on how you met Hugo and you're feelings. All I know is that you met at school." I commented on I really want to know is how she felt see if it will help me with my problem.

"Well, as you know we met in school. We were both quiet and hardly spoke to anyone just our friends until in one of our classes both of our groups were put together to work on something so I started to talk to him more and more but as I was doing that I didn't realise that I was liking him more and more until my friend pointed it out and then I started seeing it. I was scared to like anyone so I ignored him and apparently that really upset him." I was in shock I didn't expect this.

"Did you fall for him?"
"No."
"Then what happened?"

"I didn't fall for him, he pushed me."