stay with me ✧ tronnor

cinq

i've been spending
a lot of  t i m e
with troye

he makes me
h a p p y

but
sometimes
he gets
a n g r y
with me

i don't think
he likes tyler

he does not like it
when i talk
about
him
and
i
don't
know
why

i'm starting
to wonder
if
maybe
tyler will be
my
f r i e n d
as well

but
troye
wouldn't
like
that

and i
don't want
to make
him
a n g r y

---

i started
seeing
blue
eyes

e v e r y w h e r e

but
only
for
a second

he disappeared
rather
quickly

i wish he stayed longer

at lunch
today
i saw him
sitting next
to me

i was at school
which meant
troye should
have been at home

i gasped
but then he was g o n e

tyler looked
at me
f u n n y

and asked
if i was
o k a y

"i'm fine"

i wanted to tell
tyler
about
those blue eyes

but i knew
troye
would not
approve

most
days
i
was
afraid
to
talk
to
tyler

when i did
troye would
not
walk home with me

so i walked
a l o n e
today

when i got home
troye was not
there
either

he must be
r e a l l y
m a d

i decided
to make
it up
for him

i got
some paper
and p a i n t
to make
a painting
for him

i liked to paint

but what
should i
make?

the only thing
i could think of
were those
ocean eyes

as i got out
the blue paint
i felt a hand
on my shoulder

"should i pose for you?"

"oh. hello"

i was
h a p p y
to see
him
"would it be easier? if i posed?"

"i suppose"

he sat down
on my bed
but did not
s m i l e

"i do not feel like smiling today. im sorry"

"it's okay. i understand"
i whispered
as i painted

"do you know
why i am
upset?"

"yes"

"will it happen again?"

"no"

"promise?"

"promise"

when i finished
the painting
i showed
t r o y e

"you are very talented"

"thank you"

"it's very beautiful"

"it does not compare to the real thing"

he seemed confused by this

"beauty is hard to portay in art

so

it's quite difficult to paint beautiful people"