Ashley:
Shawn and I have been arguing non stop lately and it's been getting bad here, either one of us doesn't man up and end the argument or one of us leaves the house for a couple of days and doesn't officially return till the next week, Shawn is the one who's been doing that lately and I'm so tired of it
"Ashley" I turned over from the couch and saw Shawn there shirtless sweating and had his shirt over his shoulder, he just got back from working out
"What?" I asked waiting for his response but he just stood there blankly deeply breathing from his previous work out,
"Shawn what is it?" I asked starting to get worried "why do we keep arguing? It's not like us it never has been and it's just been so constant lately I'm getting really tired of it and I don't know what else to tell you besides that I want a break from all of this"
At this point he was crying not from what he just said but because he's been holding that in through these past couple of months and he's finally letting all that weight lift off him.
"Well Shawn I understand where you are coming from but this is so sudden why couldn't we have talked things out before?" I said back fighting the tears drawing up my eyes.
"Ashley you know I love you so much and in order for us to get better is to just take a break and I'm not saying breaking up but just a break I can't deal with this arguing anymore and I know for a fact you can't either" in my head I was thinking maybe he had found someone else but he's just tired of all this,
"Baby I really didn't want to do this, but it's what's best for us right now but we aren't separating just need time for us to think of all of this" I got up and started heading upstairs to pack a few of my bags and as I was heading up Shawn yelled back
"Ashley baby don't please" why would I stop if he wanted some time? And I continued up and went into our room and packed a few things into my luggage and Shawn was downstairs
After 20 minutes of packing I headed downstairs and saw Shawn on the couch sitting with his head down hands on his temples
I sighed and he saw me, he got up and walked me to the door "I could let you stay here Ashley you don't have to leave we can just forget I sa-"
"Shawn you said it and there's nothing taking it back, I'll give you all the space and time you need maybe you're right maybe we do need a break from all of this. I thought maybe we could still fight through this and not need a break to help us get through it" he looked down at me in sorrow
"I love you Shawn but I have to go now" I said and I reached up to kiss him on his forehead and he closed his eyes as I did and pulled my body in for a hug and held me tight but I just stood there with no reaction to it back and didn't return the hug
"Bab-"
"I have to go now Shawn" I cut him off heading of the doors walking straight to my car as he walked out and stood at the foot of those long beautiful doors we chose together when we first moved in
I got into my car and looked at him one last time for a awhile and I drove off...
I had an apartment just down town Los Angeles it more like a loft I had to myself and I arrived missing its beauty
I walked in and everything hit me back with memories, I have been here in a few months.
I had to make sure I called my girls up for a girls night because this break just had to make me get things off my mind.
I picked up my phone and called my girlfriends for a get together tonight at my place.
Later on that night ...
"Wow so he just said he wanted a break just like that?" My friend Ana asked, I simply nodded
All my friends were here, Tiffany, Lindsay, Madison and Ana and the twins charlotte and Katy
I explained to them everything that happened all the arguments and etc. but they all decided they were going to make this break no upsetting for me and make me forget about things that were going on with Shawn and I
"Okay but guys serious talk mark just texted me saying that we should all go to the boardwalk tonight" Tiffany said anxiously "I completely forgot you two were still together" I said giggling
She smiled and looked at me "yep 10 months going strong" I smiled
"Okay tiff who's all going with mark im so down to go if you guys are!" Ana said, I felt weird and not good hanging with guys because of Shawn but oh well we are on a break.
"Ashley come! You haven't hung with us in awhile all because of you rich famous boyfriend" Ana said which made me feel bad because I haven't made time for my girls like how I use to, that last time I hanged with them was when Shawn was on tour.
"Fuck it let's have some fun tonight and plus it is gorgeous outside" They all rushed me upstairs into my room and changed me into looking something hott
Ana put me into something very cute. I wore a olive green half sleeve shirt with black ripped shorts and some nice gold necklaces and lightly curled my hair and did my makeup
This was the first night I haven't gone out with Shawn in awhile. It felt weird and not right but I have to set my mind and focus on something else for this break.
All the girls got ready at my house and we had my driver take us to the board walk as we arrived I completely forgot how the paparazzi existed.
"What the fuck Ashley you have paparazzi?!" Tiffany asked shocked. " no I completely forgot they would follow just me too, this is just because I'm dating Shaw-"
"Or and maybe because you're a model" Ana said interrupting. I haven't modeled in awhile but it's just been a rough year so far but only because of Shawn and the arguing we've gone through.
The paparazzi stood at the entrance of the board walk and some around the car, "how did they even know you were coming?" Ana asked
"Its paparazzi an they always have you being watched or follow you everywhere" I answered, the paparazzi tends to get crazy sometimes.
"Here we will leave first so they won't really think we are with you" Ana laughs stupidly
They all head out and the paparazzi gets there cameras up and ready they already knew I was with them
I stepped out of the vehicle and once I stepped out cameras went flashing everywhere all my friends where at the entrance by now so I took a little walk and of course the paparazzi followed with and started saying the same stuff
I had my hand over my eyes and my head down as I walked to the entrance
"Ashley is it true you and Shawn are getting married?" One man asked
"Ashley are you doing modeling for Versace this year?" Another asked
"Ashley is it true you're an atheist?" The media would ask anything to ruin someone's career.
"Ashley are you and Shawn done?" One man asked and that question got to me, but I kept walking with all these flashing lights following me till I made the entrance and security made them leave.
"Damn girl you looked good out there and right now with all those flashing lights on you" Tiffany said giggling, "okay where are the guys at tiff?" The Twins asked
"They told us to meet them by the Ferris wheel" we all walked to the place we were all going to meet up and we noticed the guys
They were in a group and they all turned as Tiffany yelled for mark,
One stood out to me and I noticed a pair of eyes on me and I look to see this
Tall
Tan
Good looking guy.
"Hey my name is..."
