Story Of My Life (Ziam)

Chapter 4

Recap: "Fine. Um.....I don't really feel okay sharing this guys. Can't you just ask me questions and I answer them?" I asked after about five seconds of silence. " Okay then. I'll ask first. Why wont you ask your mum if your family can come to the wedding? Why do you keep avoiding questions about you mum, dad and sisters?" Harry asked the only questions I hoped that I would avoid answering

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Okay Zayn you can do this just tell them the truth, after all Mrs. Pearson did say that it was about time that I told some other people about my life. "Okay....well five years ago a little before I stopped talking to all of you. I was home sick with a fever of 103 degrees. My mom and sisters decide that they would drop me off at home after going to the doctors, then they would go pick up my medication. On the way back there was a drunk driver..... he hit the car head on. Our car was said to have flipped over five times before it landed in a ditch. My mum and Doniya died upon impact. Waliyha and Safa died on the way to the hospital. At the time dad was at work, so he blamed me for th----" my voice cracked. "Lads there's more to the story but maybe I can finish telling it to you later," I whispered with tears brimming my eyes.

"Zayn come here..." Liam provoked me.

So I crawled over to his open arms. Not long after the sobbing started and this was the first time in five years that I have ever cried in front of others.

"I-I-I just feel like the-there's something I could have done t-to stop it f-from h-happening," I hiccupped and sobbed into Liam's shoulder. "It s-should h-ha-have b-b-been m-me t-that d-died!"

"Hey! Don't ever say that Zayn! I'm sure they would have said the same thing if it was you who had died. Besides Zayn God has a plan for you. He decided that something would happen to you so that you can learn and grow as a person." Liam encouraged me.

"Yeah Zayn don't ever think that it should have been you. We all would have missed you!" Louis replied.

"B-but it's m-m-my fault their dead! I-if I didn't ask to be dropped off at home they wouldn't have been out at the time the driver hit them!" I sobbed.

"Shhhhh it's okay to cry Zayn." At Liam's words I buried my head in his neck.

"Don't ever say it's your fault again okay Zayn?!" Harry and Niall encouraged.

I nodded weakly tired from all the crying I had done. Liam noticed and picked me up putting me in my bed and pulling my blankets over me. "Get some sleep Zayn we'll go downstairs and hang out for a bit before we come to get you, okay?" Niall stated.

"Okay" I replied only to feel my throat already sore. As they started walking out the door I called for Liam to stay back for a moment. "Will you stay with me Liam? I just want somebody to lay with."

"Yeah sure Zayn." With that he crawled into bed with me. I layer my head on his chest as he played with my hair, and for the first time in 5 years I slept peacefully.