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Chapter 4

On my 17th birthday, it was a cold rainy Saturday in april. My mother would always say April showers bring May flowers. SHe was so cheery and never realized how broken i was inside. I had to pretend that i was perfect, when in fact i'm like the poisoned apple from Snow White, i look okay to eat on the outside when really i'm not okay for consumption on the inside. No one in my family realized I was feeling worthless for 3 years. We've been a busy family with my 2 younger brothers playing sports and my parents working, I don't blame them for never noticing. But the more I watch my life play the more I wish they could have seen it or paid a little more attention to me. That day I also got invited to a party at Julia Hall's house, she was the prettiest girl, and most popular, in my graduating class of 2018. I was surprised to get it in the mail since a. I had no friends, b. No one liked me and c. people don't come over unless they are friends with my brothers. My mom saw me reading the letter and forced me to go since she knew we didn't have any plans that night. I probably told her a 100 times that I didn't want to go and her response every time was "You should go have fun! You're in highschool, live a little. I know I did." The last time I asked her she said if I didn't go I would be grounded until I was 18, that didn't seem like fun so I went to the party.

As soon as I got there the smell of beer and weed overwhelmed me to the point of passing out. I woke up in a bed with some stranger. I felt the worst pain ever in my life. I didn't know what was going on at the time but it felt like someone was ripping me open from my legs. My vision was blurred and so i couldn't tell what was going on until about 4 minutes later when my line of sight cleared up and saw some guy on top of me with no pants on. I then realized I too did not have pants on. I now knew exactly what was happening and tried to push him off of me. He was too big for me to push and every time i would try and get out from under him he would put his hand on me to keep me still. I tried screaming and yelling, but that didn't work it only made him take off his mint colored t-shirt with the words, Sunset Valley Football on it, and shove it into my mouth to shut me up. Since i couldn't move or scream i just shut my eyes and waited for him to finish and get off me.