Big Bad Wolf (Lauren/you)

L O S T & F A D I N G

(You and Elektra)

(Your POV)
I've been distant for a few hours, but that's because my demons are getting louder and I saw Lauren texting Brad, but I never fully looked at it, afraid she might be cheating on me. I'm guessing Banana Lover noticed so she was in the back lounge as we were heading towards my modeling gig. "Y/N/N what's wrong? You're being distant," Camila said and I sighed. "I dunno, I just feel like I need to be alone, they're getting louder and I can't stop them. So, I hide from everyone, Midnight, there's something wrong with her, and I dunno why, she keeps whining and I can't help her!" I said, breaking down, Midnight whined again and I sobbed. "Night, you're supposed to tell me what's wrong, I can't feel helpless, not again," I said softly and she came out of me and sat in front of me. "I want you to stay with Camila, Lauren's gonna do something you're not gonna like, and your reaction that I saw is saddening," Midnight said. I sighed and nodded and she ran back into me. Camila was sitting in my lap and was hugging me as I cried. "Y/N/N," Camila said, pulling away a bit, cupping my cheeks as she looked at my eyes. I looked at her and she wiped my tears away and kissed my forehead. "Talk to me, tell me anything, I'm here for you," Camila said and I nodded, slightly smiling. "It's just that, she's texting the second rare species of human-sized food," I said and chuckled a bit and Camila giggled. Camila sighed a bit, after she giggled, and I could tell she's thinking. "Well, you're a genius when it comes to tech, aren't you?" Camila asked and I nodded, following with what she was getting at. "Hand me the bag above my bunk, it has a bunch of techie stuff in it," I said and she nodded and ran to go get it. Camila came back moments later and I started typing away. I got Lauren's text messages with Bread and had the notifications of their texts sent to my phone. Camila and I read it after she closed and locked the door to the back lounge.

Bread: hey babe ;)
Green-Eyes: what do you want now? 
Bread: oh, you know: you with me ;)
Green-Eyes: eww, no!
Bread: c'mon babe, you know you miss me ;)
Green-Eyes: Brad...

*Trigger warning*

I looked away from the screen, not wanting to see if she said yes. I felt my heart start to crack, and I couldn't take it anymore, so I got up, grabbed my wallet and took out one of my many razor blades I have in there. ((A/N: my cousin has razor blades in his wallet, but I think he's obsessed with blades XD)) I held out my arm and started to slowly cut myself. 

"Y/N!" Camila shrieked ((me: *thoughts: shrek...~laughs~*)) I slowly brought myself to the floor and cried as I felt the blood seeping out and the bad "could be's" and "what if's" clouding my mind. The girls ran to the back lounge and pounded on the locked door. "Y/N/N...," Camila said and I didn't bother looking at her, I wanted to feel something else, something different than heartbreak. Camila unlocked the door and the girls rushed in, seeing me put a paper towel on my arm. I looked at my other arm and put the paper towel on the floor and brought my right hand to my left arm. Camila put her wrist in front of mine and making me accidentally cut her. I gasped and looked up at her. "Don't cut, because if you cut, you're cutting me too," Camila said and I sighed, nodding. My phone started ringing as we got to the next venue and I answered it.