Protect me Ezra

Hospitals

Finally the ambulance arrived and we headed for the hospital. I can't believe this is happening again.

Spencers POV:

I sat by his bedside waiting for him to wake up, I cant believe I found him like that. I thought he was done using that stuff. He had been clean for so long, not a single part of me understood why he would ruin it for one single hit. Nothing made sense, Aria was back, Toby was using again, I was going to lose my job in DC, Hanna split with Jordan, and Lord only knows what Caleb has been doing. I didnt even want to think about what was going on in Ezras life, I destroyed his life in every way possible. I took away the one girl who meant everything to him. I held Tobys hand in mine, tears flowing down my cheeks.

Please wake up Toby, I need you I whispered, placing a delicate kiss to the back of his hand. I wanted him to wake up, I wanted this nightmare to end. Seconds felt like minutes, minutes felt like hours and hours felt like years. Time was dragging whilst I watched the one man I loved at his most vulnerable.

*** Hours later ***

Nurses had been in and out of the room checking in on Toby. After what seemed like days, Toby started to wake up. He squeezed my hand slightly, and his eyes slowly started to open. I shouted for a nurse to come and help him, he was struggling to breathe with this tube down his throat getting in his way. A wave of relief washed over my body, he was awake but not out of the woods yet. Boy was I ready to give him a piece of my mind, I wanted him to realise that this was never happening again. I am never, ever letting him do this to himself again!

Tobys POV:

I woke up surrounded by hospital machinery and bright, blinding lights. Spencer was to the left of me, stroking my hand. I could hear her crying. For some reason, I wasnt able to speak so I opted for squeezing her hand to let her know I was awake. I heard her gasp slightly and then shout for the nurse to come and help me. Every part of me knew she was going to be so angry with me. Im not sure the word angry even comes close to how she mustve felt. We had been through this once before and I promised her Id never put her through it again, and yet here we are once again. Im not sure I wanted to look at her really, I knew shed be disappointed in me and I hate that. I knew I had let her down and I promised her I wouldnt.

Suddenly, it hit me like a ton of bricks, Aria was really back. What if she remembered everything that happened, what if shes come back to get her revenge? I had to protect Spencer and the girls. I wouldnt let her hurt them because of what I made them do. I was brought back to reality by Spencers voice, she sounded so sad. Not angry, sad. Sad that I was back here, back in the dark place I worked so long to get out of. I guess seeing me like this brought back memories for her, I needed her to leave. So that she didnt have to see me like this.

Go home Spencer, you need to be with the girls. Not here with me I grumbled.

Are you insane Toby, the last place I want to be right now is away from you. I need to make sure youre okay. She whispered back.

No spencer, I am telling you to go home. I dont need you to mother me. I have Yvonne and you have Caleb. Please, leave me be I said, raising my voice.

She looked at me with a hurt expression in her eyes, I knew I had hurt her but I needed to be alone. This was my mess not hers, no way was I letting her get hurt again by my stupid actions. She wiped away the tears that had started to escape her eyes, turning on her heel I heard as she slowly walked away. Tears streaming down my own face, even though I loved Yvonne, nobody ever compared to the way Spencer made me feel. She made me feel at home, she made me feel safe and by telling her to go home, I was trying to do what was best for her. Little did I know, I may have gotten her in more trouble by doing so