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«Anxiety attacks»

One, I feel it
Two, it's coming
Three, won't matter if I prepare
Four, it's starting
Five, it is increasing
Six, I feel like I could control it
Seven, it is too hard but not impossible, I think
Eight, I feel like my chest is going to explode
Nine, I am scared
Ten, I feel vulnerable
Eleven, there is no end
Twelve, I can't do this anymore
Thirteen, now I pray
Fourteen, I wanna give up
Fifteen, I am not me
Sixteen, I should just die
Seventeen, I will quit, stop trying to save me
Eighteen, don't climb my walls
Nineteen, everything I did was useless
Twenty, I pretend to put a period and move on but God knows I'm more fucked up than I know.
Thirty....Ninety.....Two hundred.. You can count for all I know.
This is life and one of those mountains you get to climb real high but keep on mind that nature surrounds, there all stuff that will be on your way, it's up to you if you let them play with your name.

-FujoshiiPanda-kun