i'm currently in an odd place mentally. i don't know what i'm feeling, but it's very negative. i want to cut ties with people and isolate myself, but i feel very lonely and bored at the moment. it feels like theres a weight on my chest that won't get heavier or lighter no matter what i do. i want to be left alone but i also crave attention. all of my thoughts are contradicting and it's very frustrating.
