Speechless

Two Faced Murderer

Silence.

I stare straight into the void as thoughts surround my mind, coming in massive waves, leaving me breathless.

Defenseless.

Here to suffocate alone.

I reminisce, recalling back to the time I felt complete

From then to now, how did I get here?

As I fall into my own hole, I see the way it all falls apart

Everything just seems so out of place now

I just want to end it all.

            And I'm falling down

Falling down

          Falling down
                        
                          down
                       
                             down

To the point where I don't know if I'll ever be able to get back up.

It's harder to breathe down here, so I don't think I'll make it through

I've dug myself way to deep to ever come out-

Wait!
No..

It was you...
So blinded was I
To have not seen YOU

It was not I who dug this hole but you who has dug my grave
But it's too late now.......

because I lay here dying

...

You placed me here,
Made a hole for my remains instead of making me ever feel whole

No!

And you ruined me
And now I can never be the same again

You were two faced
So much had I believed you were good
So much faith I had in you
So much false hope I now realize I had
All those lies I covered up for you
All those excuses I made up just to justify your actions
So two faced you were that what I thought was love was just a mere illusion
Such as fact was known, you had an alter ego

And that 'you'

decided to end me
And now I can never take a single breathe again....
Because you took my life.

~Catherine