two faced 〜〜 p.j.m

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I woke up only to find myself in a hospital, laying down on a bed. I saw Taeyeon hovering above me with a worried expression.

"What happened?" I asked, slowly sitting up in the bed, "what time is it?" My head was pounding. I felt like I could physically hear it pulsing, screaming out the pain.

Taeyeon was very hesitant to tell me what had happened, "you hit your head on the concrete, because...." she paused.

"Because...." a dumbfounded look was on my face.

"You saw Jimin holding hands with Somi..." she quickly said all in one breath.

"And Jimin is.....?" I questioned.

Taeyeon's expression went blank.

"What? What's wrong? Did something else happen?" I question the expression on her face.

Taeyeon paced around the room, quietly mumbling to herself.

She stopped.

She turned to me, "Okay... If it weren't for you hitting your head on the concrete, or should I say, hitting your head that hard on the concrete, you wouldn't be here in the hospital." She explained.

"Go on..." I say.

"Well, since you did hit your head pretty hard on the floor, at first you were obviously sent to the school nurse. After the nurse told me that you hit your head harder than she had originally thought, we called an ambulance and they took a brain x-ray and the doctors told me that you might suffer from short-term amnesia...." she completes explaining.

"Where's my parents? Did the doctors not call them and tell them I'm here?" I look at Taeyeon waiting for a response.

"They called them, but at a wrong time. They're currently on a plane to Tokyo on a business trip, but will see you in two days." Taeyeon gives me a weak smile.

"So who is this Jimin?" I bring up the name Tae mentioned earlier.

Taeyeon's head shoots towards me. "Wait, so you really don't know who I'm talking about?"

I shake my head, no.

"Are you sure?"

"Positive."

"1000 % pos--" I cut her off, "Yes!"

She inhales deeply.... "The doctors told me that your amnesia might have only effected parts of your memory that was the most painful for you...."

"So what is Jimin to me exactly? A "painful memory"?" Raising an eyebrow.

"He's......" it feels like time is going by so slowly, I leaned forward anticipating for the answer, "your..... childhood friend." She lets out a sigh of relief.

My mind confused, and my face obviously shows it.

"Okay listen. I know it might sound like "uh that's not that big of a deal" she says sarcastically, "But listen--"

"You already said that." I cut her off, again

"Whatever, anyways, Jimin. Park Jimin is your childhood friend, and he was your crush for seven years." She dramatically says.

I didn't know what to say. How can that be? If I liked him for seven years, shouldn't he especially, be someone I remember?

"Seoyoon? Seoyoon~" Tae waves her hands in front of me.

I snap out of my trance, "Huh? Oh, sorry... just trying to think about how can I have liked Jimin for so many long years, and yet he's the most painful memory I have..." I tilted my head to the left.

Taeyeon took a deep breath in, "it's because he doesn't like you back. He actually despises you... and had said multiple times that he doesn't like you in that way." She gave me the hard truth.

I was paralyzed. How can someone be so rude?

"Was I bring stupid and still liked him even though he said he hated me?" I looked toward Taeyeon stuffing her face with the hospital pudding, "yes."

I was disappointed in myself. How can I chase after a guy who said he hated me.

"But right before you fainted, you actually started to give up on him and stopped trying to talk to him outside of school." She says with a mouthful of pudding.

"What do you mean outside of school?"

"Well, your parents; wait do you know who your parents best friends are?" She asks.

"Of course I do, Mr. and Mrs. Park." I immediately answer.

"Yeah....." her face trails off to the side, "Mr. and Mrs. Park is the father and mother of Park Jimin...." she turns back around and stuffs her face with pudding.

She gulps it all downs and turns around, "In front of them he acts so innocent and kind. You've told me he offers to get your food for you, he smiles and talks to you during dinner, and before leaving gives you hugs. BUT! It was all fake. Staged. So you decided to rebel and ignore him like he does you. You avoided his hug and his offering his smile and laugh. But... this morning your couldn't handle the sadness and anger you felt watching Somi with him. I mean, you did like him for seven years, and now changing your direction of how you look at him, and how fast you were doing it, yeah it must have been hard."

I bob my head up and down. "So does he know that I fainted and went to the hospital?" I question Tae.

"Well, everyone at school knows that you fainted and was taken to the school nurse. But no one except me knows that you came to the hospital, well because you know... I was the one who carried you to the nurse." She laughs staring into space.

"Hm." I nod.

"So what do I do about Jimin?"

"Continue to ignore him!" She instantly replied, "do not try and fall for his dumb little tricks that will never work."

As soon as Taeyeon finishes her sentence, the door opened and revealed the doctor.

"Well everything checks out. Your amnesia will only last about 24 hours or less, not that big of a deal, but do be aware. Stay home from school until your memory has fully returned and you have fully recovered. Okay?"

"Yes, sir." I nod at him.

"Okay great, so if you could change and grab your other belongings and I will get you discharged and you can be on your way." He said and smiled, closing the door behind him.

"Do you need help getting up?" Tae offers her assistants.

"No, I'm fine." I swing my feet to the side of the bed and stand up.

Everything suddenly felt so weird. My head started to hurt, I yelped in pain.

And then, everything came back to me....

Jimin. How badly he had hurt me. The pain he gave me. The ways he's treated me. The burden he's put on me. Everything  Up to today, the day I saw him and Somi my "used to be best friend" who finally got what she wanted.

"Seoyoon!!" Taeyeon worried, "oh my God you black out for a moment and I thought you were gonna.... you know... *beeeepp*" she mimics a dead line.

I hit her arm. "Ow! That hurt!" She yells.

"You deserved it. Anyways, I got my memory back!! Everything."

Jimin you motherfucker I hate you. I hate you so much, but I love you at the same time. I DON'T UNDERSTAND! What are my feelings for you right now??!

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