Here's to Us || On Hold

♥ Present Day ♥

November 20, 2024.

I stand in my bedroom, looking at myself in the mirror, scrutinising my face and appearance. My eyes are droopy and have dark circles around them, lack of sleep. My stomach is skinny and you can just barely see my ribs, lack of food. My lips are pulled down giving them the sad look, lack of well, him. I've been a mess ever since he left me all those years ago. I've never been the same. I sigh at my appearance, my dyed red hair pulled up into a bun and I can see the roots are growing through and its color had dulled a little.

At that moment my boyfriend Kaleb walks in and catches sight of me in the mirror, his smile dropping and I look into his brown eyes, although they're not the ones I wish to see, they're not the same and they don't have the sparkle in them like his did.

"What you thinking about babe?" He asks as he wraps his arms around my waist and kisses my neck, I shudder and step away from him. Not because I don't like it, but because it's just not the arms I wish to hold me and it's not the pair of lips I wish to be on my neck.

"Nothing babe, I'm just daydreaming" I say with no emotion.

"That's hard to believe, what's wrong?" He asks.

"Nothing, honestly babe I'm fine" I reply.

"Fine then, suit yourself." He sighs, and walks away and out the room.

I knew you didn't care about me like he did. I think to myself. Suddenly, a thought rushes to my head and I walk to the wardrobe and I open the door and pick up the oh so familiar bag I haven't touched in years and I route through it and pull out the book I haven't read in years. My diary. This book is really important to me. Why, you might ask? Well you see, this is filled with all the events of the past years. I open it, and the date that's written on the first page is enough to bring tears to my eyes. It's been ten years? Already? That was the slowest ten years of my life. Here goes letting out all my emotions I've held in all these years. I think to myself.

Wasting no time, I sit down on my bed and read the events out loud after Kaleb had left for the night.

My name is Erin-Mai Walsh, and this is my story.

Welcome to Here's to Us! This is the first proper book I've ever written and there are probably a lot of mistakes because my writing isn't really that good. But here goes anyway, I hope you guys like reading this as much as I'll like working on it. I'm gonna go now as it's late here (its like 3 AM)

So anyway, I hope you enjoy this book!

~ Erin-Mai ♥