Ok..hmmm. Guys...im so confused. Im in a situation where...i have to act differently around certain people. What does it mean when you look at someone and your heart skips a beat. When you go to bed every night thinking of that person. When you wake up every morning so eager to see that person once again. When you...say you love them every day...thinking to yourself "what if". But you're unable to finish the sentance, knowing that what you're about to say is absolutely never gonna happen. What does all that mean. What does it mean to feel all these things...i wish i knew.
I thought i found love. I was so determined to make it work. But...i guess..i don't know what love is. Maybe i'm not meant to fall in love. Maybe being alone is...just how my life was meant to be. I feel like...my heart is..with someone. Someone im really close with. My heart is saying yes...but my mind is saying no. My heart is with someone pulling me closer to this person...but my mind is saying it's wrong and pulling me back. It's kind of like a never ending game of tug of war. I'm the rope..just being pulled back and fourth between my heart and my mind. Stuck in the middle of the two being even more confused. I'm afraid that..one day the rope (me) will break. Leaving me in a depressed mood all the time.
Well...i guess im done here. I apologize for my random wave of unanswered questions. I just...needed to sit and write what i was thinking. Well..type what i was thinking. Just one more thing to remember. Please smile. Smiling makes those around you happy. It also can make you happy as well. Give it a try😀😀
Enjoy the rest of your day and/or night. Peace ✌❤
