I'm Transgender...

Please Read

Before I start this, please know this is not a cry for attention. This is not a plead for help. In no way am I attempting to get attention from all of this. I'm asking for a favor.

So, as I've implied before, I have a boyfriend. I'll not say his name for his own privacy. I love him to death. He makes me happy. He makes me smile. He makes me feel like I'm worth something. I couldn't ask for anyone better.

This guy started flirting. I never saw it as flirting, as I'm a clingy person and see it as being "friendly." I thought I was being friendly back, but he took it as flirting.

He told me he liked me several weeks ago. I, in a way, said that he just found comfort in me and saw me as a close friend.

The next day, he told me he loved me. I told him no. I said I didn't feel the same way, and I had no interest in him. I asked if we could still be friends and ignored me.

As I said, I'm a clingy person. I kept trying to text him, in hopes of changing things.

Although I'm not religious, I went to church today. I go just to get away from home, I guess. But I went. And he was there.

I thought if I invited him to a game of volleyball, he'd talk to me. He was on the opposite team with his friend (although it seems he's hitting on her as well), and I was with my best friend. I was fine, until he spiked the ball into my face.

It hit hard. Not enough to make me cry, but I was holding my face for awhile. I thought it was just an accident, so I sat out for awhile while they played.

I hopped back in and started playing again after a few moments. Everything was cool until I got hit in the jaw. By him.

My best friend is also close with him, so best friend somewhat yelled, but in a joking way. I claimed I was fine and sat out for good.

Eventually, everyone sat down and we had the lesson.

We had two "leaders" in our youth today. They had been in a different room, and everyone kept quiet on what happened.

After the lesson, I called my mom to pick me up. She said she'd be there in five minutes, then she hung up. I had just put my phone down, when I got hit in the face once again. This guy's tactic was to hit me with balls and make it seem like an accident.

Again, no one said anything. This guy was seen as a sweet, gentle guy. But he laughed. He never even looked at me. It hit my glasses, which pushed into the side of my nose.

My nose and jaw are bruised. I'm avoiding posting pictures to avoid attention. This isn't a cry for attention. I can promise you that.

Please. Don't act aggressive towards anyone. No one deserves to be pushed around for saying no.

Don't let people be aggressive towards you. I had a huge relationship with his family, as they are youth leaders, and they were and are the sweetest people. But he wasn't. He was more like his dad, rather than his step-dad, which is the father I know.

Just, stay safe. Don't let people push you around. Don't push people around. Just let people be happy. Be happy.

Im having issues at home as well, hence my lack of updates. I'll post sometime soon once everything is settled down.

Thank you, guys. For everything.