Before I Jump || K.L

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It was as if the weather was reflecting my mood, with the rain hitting my window like my tears hit the ground. It hurt sometimes hearing them fighting, because I knew it was always about the same thing... Me.

Suddenly there is a bang of a door and silence until I hear steps on the stairs. I hear a light knock on my door and know it's my mum, "come in" I say while quickly wiping my tears away with my sweater sleeve.

She opens the door and looks at me then realized I have been crying. Her face falls and she hugs me while whispering in her motherl voice,"It's ok Lucie, it's ok". I know everything is well, everything except my mental health, but that's not what they fight about.

They fight about how my grades dropped when he died. This boy, Cameron, he was my world. I knew him before I could even walk properly, we did everything together until one summer when we were driving down the road with 2 of our friends, a drunk driver hit the drivers side killing him instantly. Matthew,Alexa and I got off with a few scratches and broken bones, but nothing good measure up to the loss of him.

He would make you smile even if you didn't want to, he was one of those people. I miss him nearly every day, and I can't help but think it should have been me that died that night.

I cried into my mums shoulder as she whispered calming things to me, "Mum..." I sniffle,"I miss... him"

So here's the first real chapter I hope you enjoy it. They will start to get longer I promise, Xx