Adison & Oliver

I'm loosing her

Finally tests ended. Life feels good again. Holidays in two more days. I'm planning staying here and going out with friends. Maybe even Addy. No, I'm over her. She has someone to be with. She deserves someone like Liam. I didn't feel bad or mad or sad.

Last day of school

The bell rang and as usual, class turns from graveyard to busy city. The teacher is trying to get people to hush. Seems pointless to me. Kids run out the door. Jump on desks. Fling papers around and shout 'schools over'. Yeah, I know pretty pointless.

I quietly got up and swung my bag on my back, and again,on one shoulder. I had two books and one folder in my hand. I walked out quietly. A hand reached to my shoulder, in surprise it was Addison. "Hey!" I said casually. "HI. " she replied. "So do you wanna go out with friends during the holiday. I am. You can come along?" She said.

Did she just ask me to come along, a date. God ...!

Stupid me said yes. "Great!" she replied. She had a smile on her face, like she was excited or something. The smile quickly turned into a see you later kind of thing. She giggled and did that thing girls do with their hair when their shy.

She took her index finger and twirled it around her blond, highlighted strip of hair. She turned around and walked towards her sister. Yea, I forgot our sisters are in the same class. That makes me feel good. I don't know why.

I see my sister walk out of the gate. A slight disappointment flushes through my vein. I don't get along with my sister. She tugs on my hair and bites my toes. But without her I'd be bored forever. Kayla, my sister was on the other side of the road walking behind Addison and her sister.

They didn't realise Kayla. Kayla reaches out her hand and grabs on to Maria saying, "BOO!" Maria looked shocked but also annoyed. I ignored them for a moment. Addison looked at Kayla and grabbed her by the hand gently. They all were walking together. Kayla, Maria and Addison. Addison coughed continously, I think she just has the flue.

"Shush...Kayla. I'm tired!" Maria explained. I could see she's getting annoyed. I walked faster now. By now I was running. More like a slight jog trying to chase after them. "Uhm, Kayla.." I showed a time out sign with my hands. She backed up and stop walking. I stopped walking too.

She walked off the walkway. Walking towards the street. Kayla was smiling and walking casually. Maria and Addy were walking. Addy was looking at Kayla, she is always so careful and protective. Kayla was about half way through the street. The sound of screeching tires driving around the corner. I ignored them. Then I realised.

I dropped my school bag. They dropped to the pathway. Papers and pencils scattered on the grass. I was sprinting towards her. I was slow. Useless. Unhelpful.

I knew someone was going to get hurt. Addy yelled at her sister to stay and started sprinting as well. I wish she hadn't done that. Kayla looked to her left to see a big grey vehicle speeding towards her.

The man inside was on his phone. He realised her and braked hard. The sound screeched on he road. I stopped. I don't know why. I gave up and panted on the floor. I closed my eyes. I didn't want to see or hear. I wish nothing had happened. I didn't see but I could hear.

Bang.

I heard papers.
A heavy thud.
No cries.

A person threw their arms around me and I felt scared. Only scared. My parents will kill me if Kayla got hurt.

Luckily she didn't.

Which was bad. I looked up to see Kayla crying in fear. I patted her on her head. I dusted my knee and stood up. I still didn't know what happened.

I saw something I would not forget. A man holding a life less body between his arms. A girl. A friend. My world. Addy. She had no cuts or bruises.

The man holding her said that she's okay and only had a concussion (whatever that means). He seemed casual and just carried her into his grey car. He buckled her in. "D'you have the kids parents number?" He asked me. "No..." obviously not. "That her sister? Hope in young lady." He said. Then he drove away in a rush.

I was less scared now. But I was giving Addy and her sister to a complete stranger. Shit. What was I thinking. I don't get myself. I quickly grabbed my sister and hurried home to get my parents.

When I got my parents they seemed to already be informed. So I felt a relief and scampered off to my room.

The phone rang.

I heard my mum pick it up and I wasn't worry. She said a few words and I heard her sob. Then she said,

Sorry*;&#^$&#&$/)&$&$(

Why, I knew something had happened. That moment I didn't seem to care less until the next moment I found my mum sobbing at my doorway. "Jeez, mum....dad again?!?!?" I said. (Trying [TRYING] to be casual). She explained that she was fine and she explained that you were there during this accident. Why the fuck are you crying if nothing happened! "The doctors did some tests. And...and...uh... Oliver...Addison was tested and had cancer...lung uhm...cancer." she managed to finally say. That moment I felt that warm tear drop down my cheek. I'm very familiar with cancer. In fact my dog has a cancer and my two uncles died of it. It's not anything new, I feel like everyone around is dying. My dad and mum are fighting and now Addy. Someone I cared about.

God has the power of giving us life but why does her have to take it away. I don't want to loose Addy nor my parents or anyone else. Why........

Why me?

Why her?

Why cancer?