Random thoughts in my head

dark.

that one word.

everyone is afraid of it.

maybe you think you're not.

but I'm sure you are.

it's there every single day, even though you probably don't think about it.

it's a normal thing in your eyes.

but that one thing makes people terrified.

because what happens when it gets to you?

do you even think about that?

probably not.

but I know what it does.

I experience it from up close.

wanna know what it does?

it makes your whole world dark.

you can't see shit when it gets you.

nothing but bad things.

it comes and it goes.

and there is nothing you can do about it.

keep writing, I tell myself.

they do like it, I tell myself.

but it comes back.

in the shape of a person wandering in my head.

making a mess.

yelling at me.

you're not doing it right.

they hate it.

it's not them who hate it, but me.

I need you to know, that it is here right now.

that it's yelling at me.

that I'm not writing poetry.

but I'm bravely going on.

because I know I'll appreciate it later.

maybe you do too.

but really,

this is just another attempt to make these dark, mean voices stop.

and I hope that anyone who has this too,

that has this evil darkness inside their head,

that they know now that they need to go on.

do what you like.

maybe this is an unconscious call for help,

but please listen to yourself.

because that's the only way to make the darkness fade into bright shining light.