I won't share you

Knocking on a door

I walked up to the door that I was given the address for. The place look nice from the outside. Birds chirped behind me in tress that were partly seen from other houses yards.
"Looks like this is it." I hesitated knocking. 'Just got to get it over with' I told myself. I heard shuffling from inside. I looked to the door knob. It jiggled as a hand grabbed it on the other side. Crap what do I say?! I didn't even think of that!
"Sorry it took me so long I had to-" I was met by a very tired looking Johnny. "Oh... hey Moz." He looked to the ground I searched his face for some sort of evidence of why I hadn't seen him. He finally looked my in the eyes. His brown eyes seemed sad. All I could manage was,
  "Can I come in?" Johnny nodded. Stepping aside to let Me in . The smell of cigarette smoke and tea hit my nose.  Johnny lead me into the living room were there was a mess of letters on an arm chair and smoke still floating in the air.
  " 'Can sit down here." Johnny pointed to the couch. "Do you want anything to drink?" He said as he made his way to the kitchen.
  "I'll just have tea." I called to him. I looked around the room. Johnny came back in holding two cups.
  "Here you are." He handed me it while sitting next to me.
  "T-thank you." I smiled trying not to sound nervous. Why is he acting so normal?!
  "So Mozza, you wanted to talk?" He looked to me. How am I going to say this with out sounding like a dick?
  "I...I was just worried. You haven't answered your phone. No ones seen you..." I looked into his eyes. All I could think was he hated me because of what happened. The kiss.
  "I know, I know. I'm truly sorry." he took my hand. He stared back at me with his dark eyes. "I will tell you why when the time comes. I think you know what I'm talking about." I nodded. I certainly did. I looked down to our hands.
  "Have you talked to Angie yet?" His hand tightened on mine.
" No I haven't, I should..." seemed to space out as he looked to the telephone. He looked back at me. His eyes seemed to lower to what almost seemed like my lips.
  "Uh, Johnny did... you leave because...we... you know." His face flushed. His hands fumbled.
"No-no it wasn't because of that." He stood up. "Is it alright if I play record?" He said turning to me. I nodded my head to signify I was fine with it . He went to his shelf and pulled out a New Order record. After putting it on he came back and sat next to me. Bizarre love triangle began to play. "Moz, would you dance with me?" He stood up again and held out his hand. I nodded standing up and taking his hand. He put my other hand on his shoulder. "I'll lead." He smiled. My cheeks felt hot. His hand then went to my waist. I pulled us close together as we swayed and awkwardly twirled around the room often accidentally bumping into things. We would just laugh ignore the world around us. I stared into Johnny's dark brown eyes as he looked at me.
"May seem a bit strange to say this but Johnny, you are very Handsome." He smiled while tightening his grip on my waist.
"Thanks pretty boy." He said with a wispy laugh. Johnny some how seemed distant yet like he was trying his best to be right here and no where else.
  "Uh, Johnny are you sure your okay with this? I mean... you have Angie. You don't need to be dancing with a boy in your house." I laughed trying to be light hearted.
  "I don't really know right now. I'm confused. But until things get figured out up here" he pointed to his head. "I want us to still be friends." I nodded. He leaned his head on my shoulder. We swayed a bit as the song ended. The warmth between us spreading. I could hear him humming something that was not the song. It was more of something he thought of in his head. "Hey Moz can I show you something?" He said looking up at me with excitement. The light from the window behind the couch shined on his face. 
"Yeah of course. " He took my hand and lead me upstairs. He lead me into what I guessed to be his room. Johnny let go and walked over to a guitar sitting on a stand.
  "Okay so I've been sort of working on something that I thought I should show you." He sat on his bed taking out a piece of paper and handing it to me. "Here sit next to me." He patted the bed. I sat down looking over the paper. It was filled with lyrics. I looked into his dark eyes. His pupils were large and filled with amusement.
  "What is this?" I said as I pulled my eyes away from his.
  "Its lyrics obviously." He laughed. "I wanted to show you the song I have been working on." He smiled. His hands quickly moved as he played the guitar. And then I heard it.
  "Take me out tonight~" Was that... coming from Johnny. My eyes must be deceiving me.
" where there's music and there's people who are young and alive."  His eyes were closed as he strummed.
"Driving in your car I never never want go home because I haven't got one,anymore~" His eyes fluttered open and his eyes stared into mine. He moved over the words easily. To distract my self I looked at the lyrics in the sheet of paper. He bumped me. "Morrissey you sing the next verse." I looked down to the paper.
  "Take me out tonight
Because I want to see people
And I want to see light

Driving in your car
Oh, please dont drop me home
Because its not my home, its their home
And Im welcome no more~"  Johnny's face was filled with happiness. His smile was big. "Okay now together." My face began to get hot.
  "And if a double-decker bus
Crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die

And if a ten-ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure, the privilege is mine~" before I knew it we were both leaning in slowly. Our lips meet. Johnny put the guitar aside and pulled me closer. I wrapped my arms around his neck while one of his hands were on my waist and the other in my hair. We pulled apart for air. Johnny gave me a quick kiss on the side of my mouth. "Looks like I know where I can get free guitar lessons." I smiled as he kissed my neck. At this point I didn't care if he left marks.
  "You bet~" Johnny said coming back up and kissing me again. This time it was rough. Cigarette smoke and sweetness filled my mind. Johnny let out a soft moan. "Moz~" I leaned back taking in what Johnny looked like right now. Simply Beautiful.
  "Um. So... the song was really good." I said meaningfully. He nodded.
  "Thank you.We should sing together more often." He let out a laugh. The sun still shined on him. Maybe now that I've come to see him. He won't hide in here any more.
  "Johnny, do you think you'll finally join society?" I smirked.
  "Maybe just for awhile pretty boy".  He winked. That's all I needed to hear.