I won't share you

Our Last Night

Bang bang bang! Sounded the door. It clashed with the rain that was pouring outside. The streets were all mirrors of the night.I stood up from the couch which the springs that lied within it squeaked in protest, I made my way toward the door nervous as to what was on the other side. As I opened it there stood a familiar sight. A dark figure, it was Johnny, my Johnny. He was drenched head to toe from the wretched rain. His eyes had dark circles under them. Those very eyes held such large tears. They were streaming down his face. I embraced him in my arms. His wet clothes soaking my own. I could feel him shaking underneath me. He let out a sob as he leaned into my touch. Booth of our knees gave in,we sat in the doorway holding eachother. I knew what had happened. I wouldn't ask unless he wanted me to. I kissed his head trying to calm him. I could feel him holding tight to my shirt. "I've got you Johnny." I said running my hand through his damp hair. This seemed like deja vu. I knew what to say to get him upstairs and dry. I kissed his head once more "Johnny, love, let's get you upstairs and dry you off" he nodded. I stood up slowly, pulling him with me. We stood facing eachother. He now had a smile on his face as we looked at each other. It felt contagious, my face spreadwith a matching smile.
"Hi pretty boy." He said holding me by my waist.
"Hello there you handsome devil." His hand ran along my cheek and jaw. "Let's get you dry." He whined but trailed behind me as I made my way up the stairs to my room.
We walked in, I made my way towed the bathroom as the floor boards creaked under my feet. I searched the cupboards for a dry towel. "Johnny get yourself out of those wet clothes and I'll grab you a towel to get dried up!" I shouted to him. Ah here we are. I pulled the biggest one I could find and walked back into the room. Johnny stood at the side of the bed unbuttoning his shirt. He dropped it on a near by chair. I must of looked awkward just standing there.
  "What?" He looking at me. I shook myself from staring. I strode over and handed him the towel.
"Here you go, get yourself warm." He took it and rubbed his face with it. Johnny contently sighed into the towel enveloping himself in the warmth.
  "Thank you Moz, sorry this keeps happening." He said with a small grin. "I'll have to make it up to you sometime." I laughed at this and took the towel from him and started drying his hair. He looked happy from the affection. It was melting my heart. His smile the way he was holding on to my shoulders to steady himself. His eyes fluttered open staring into mine. God, he looked so beautiful. The room was silent for a moment. Just him and I. The world seemed to fall away. His hand came up from my shoulder and and ran itself through my hair to the back of my neck. His face was soft and sweet but his eyes, they were full of lust. My eyes flicked down to his lips. They grew into a smirk. "My eyes are up here Moz" I felt heat in my cheeks as I looked back up at his eyes.
  "I-sorry I was- I was just-" I started to feel flustered.
  "Oh shut up and come here you idiot" Johnny crashed his lips against my own. At first it was passionate. His hands pulled my hair making me closer. I held his face in my hands. My mind went blank, all I could think about was him. Then the kiss became hungry, rushed. His hands fell from the back of my head and started roaming else were. I moaned at the feeling. My knees felt so weak. He left my lips and kissed along my jaw and neck leaving my gasping for air.
  "Ah Johnny!" I moaned into his shoulder. My pants felt tighter than usual. Constricting. "Johnny please!" I felt his hand traced down my stomach to the helm of my pants. I ran my hand down his bare chest trying to take in everything. My hands soon flew back to his shoulder holding for dear life. His hand was palming me through my jeans. "Fucking Christ" he kissed my jaw a few times then back to my lips. His hands moved back up , much to my dismay. I let out a whine.the hands took up the helm of my shirt and lifted the shirt up and over my head. Once it was off I caught Johnny back into a deep kissing running my hands through his hair making it into a beautiful mess. I felt the side of the bed against the back of my knees. Johnny stopped kissing me for a moment looking into my eyes as I looked into his. He smiled, I smiled back. His hands came up to my shoulders tracing soft circles, then, I was pushed back into the bed. I harshly hit the covers while giggling. I was trying to make the air light knowing what was about to happen. I looked up at Johnny from my position. He was standing there look at me with a skeptical look. I could feel him memorizing every detail. I squirmed on the bed from the tightness of my pants and lying there under his gaze. Finally after what seemed like ages. He gave a wicked grin. Like panther he pounced on the bed crawling slowly up to me. I felt so nervous yet, needy? I wanted him so bad. His face was inches apart from mine, his body hovered over my own. I took my hand up and drew flowers with my thin figure on his chest. His lustful look formed into a smile.  He watched has I figure trace the shapes. He looked back into my eyes. My knees felt shaky. I had to try and keep my composure in front of him yet my mind willed my other wise.
"Make me warm baby. I'm so very cold from the rain." He said planting harsh kisses to my bare chest. I gripped into his hair earning a moan as I egged him on. He came back up, instantly I melted into his lips. He rolled his hips against my own. I felt over stimulated. My senses on full over load. 
  "Johnny-Johnny I-I need you" I begged through desperate pants and whimpers.
  "I know love, I know." His started to unbuckle my belt and remove my very unnecessary trousers. He did the same for him self, tossing them across the room. I was left exposed in my boxers, he without intention, had pulled his off with his pants and was using this to his full advantage. He rolled his his hips against mine with again which I met with. My head lulled back pressing against the pillow. He took as an invitation leaving kisses from my neck down my stomach back to under my jaw line , I'm sure leaving marks in his wake. I buried my hands in his hair as I suppressed a moan. The only thing keeping him and I apart was the thin fabric of my boxers. I wanted, no needed more.
"Fucking hell Johnny! Just fuck me already!" I covers my mouth after realizing my own neediness. He smirked at this.
"You got it princess." As he pulled my boxers down as I quickly reached for my nightstand drawer pulling a condom out and lube. My hands were shaking as I handed them to Johnny. I was so nervous and so much of my own skin was showing. Something no one has ever seen. I was worried about judgement or not being good enough. My thoughts were pushed away as Johnny kissed me.  "Love, Moz, there's no need to be nervous. You. Look. Beautiful." I kissed him again pulling him down and wrapping my arms around his neck. Suddenly I felt the alien feeling of fingers entering me. I squirmed under Johnny not sure how I felt about the matter. He kept on kissing. "You need to calm down love. Relax. It's all fine" I nodded" Do you still want to do this?" He said looking into my eyes. God they were so beautiful.
  "Yes definitely, yes, it's just-"
  "I know love, but you need to relax". I nodded once more giving him the okay to proceed. I kissed him tenderly loosing my self in those heavenly lips and clearing my mind. I could feel my digits but I tried to focus on the feeling of how Johnny's hair felt in my hands, that was until a wave of pleasure filled my body and my head rolled back as I let out a moan. Johnny hit this spot once again causing me to shiver and shake under him.
"God Johnny I'm ready! Ah please!" I pleaded. He kissed me chastely pulling his figures out. I whined at the empty feeling.
"As you wish pretty boy" slowly he pushed himself into me. I gripped onto him for dear life. Wrapping my legs around him. The pain and please sure was to much, far to much. I looked up at him as he waited for me to give him the signal that he could move. Sweat collected on his brow and his hair was a beautiful mess. I loved every inch of him. And his eyes were looking back into mine. I loved them from the first time a meet with them. And now they were mine and he was mine. Were were no longer the boy in the diner and the handsome waiter. We so much more. To answer his look o kissed him deeply.
"Dear god please move," was all I could muster. His pace started slow. I teased him by leaving love bites all over his chest, loving the sound of his deep moans. I felt like I was in heave, especially when all of the sudden Johnny hit nervous to close to home. He must have noticed. How could he not after practically screamed his name in his ear. His pace became faster and needed.
"Morr-Moz I'm so close" he said breathlessly tickling my neck with his hot breath, it set me over the edge. All I could do was whisper 'me too' before I was over board and so was he. I held onto never wanting to let go. He rolled off of me and laid next to me holding my hand.
"That was-"
"-amazing" I nodded in approval. Holy shit. He slowly started laughing I soon joined him. I looked to him and he looked to me. I giggled a bit at his ruined hair flushed cheeks and his body just as out of breath as mine own. He raised our hands to his lips and gave mine sweet kisses then kissed me tenderly. How was I so lucky to have this man? To have him in my life. Some one you understands me and doesn't judge me and run off and tell the world my secret. A man who will call for weeks , a man who will go through freezing rain.
"Johnny, I-I love you." I saw as his lips curved into a smile. His eyes wrinkled as well, the smile seemed to affect his whole face.
"I love you to Morrissey, I love you too. And I don't think I'm ever going to stop. I want to-to grow old with you. I know that we can't get married or make how we feel public, but I love you and I'm okay with have a little world with you where I can be with you. I love you Moz." Tears streamed down my face after every word. How did he always know what to say? To this I cuddled up next to him. I rested myself against his side and left sweet kisses on his marked skin.
"I'd love nothing more in the world. I want you to be in my life for ever. And grow into old grey men. So tonight stay with me and the night after that and every night. You holding me gives me the feeling of 'safety' I've never felt before. So please, stay with me?" He kissed the top of me head bringing me closer and pulling the covers over us.
"I'll always stay until the day I die my love. Now get some sleep. I love you" he kissed me once more before I felt myself drifting off peacefully, unaware of what lied in the near future. To us fallen flowers.

Well that My Darlings was the last chapter and the epilogue of 'I won't share you' I hope it's filled your expectations. I wished it might have been a bit better but non the less I knew I had to publish it. The fate of Johnny and Moz was already set in stone.