The Mask Of Your Lies

"I Hope You Make Her Happy"

It was Saturday and I wanted to go dancing because Damian had arrived in the morning from the United States and we had agreed to see each other at the dance, I asked Mum which she answered - no we have visits from your cousins ​​and they are not going to Let alone - It was the first time i dared answer my mother saying - it is not my fault and I want to go dancing -, listening to my reaction mom was surprised, her daughter who always obeyed was talking as if it were not her, Mom asked, which one of you is going out with him? - referring to my sister Clara and me, - you know that they comes from a father who always beat his mother and, who impregnated her 11 times and left to the United States without taking care of his children - to which my sister and I denied her suspicion.
As my mother did not give me the permission I went with my father who was meeting with my uncles in the courtyard, to which with a smile he accepted, I hugged and kissed him, without having cared to have subtracted authority from my mother.

A month after having seen Damian and having gone out several times to walk around the town where I sometimes try to pay for some refreshment or treat, I always refused because my parents had educated us in a disinterested way, So I paid mine, even his sometimes and even though he came from the United States and wanted to make me see that he brought dollars, for me that was not the prime thing in life because I also worked.

One Sunday in the month of October 1995, we went My sister Clara and I at a fair in another town, my sister and other friends gathered, but Damian did not want to get out of the car and asked me not to get out and talk there .But that wasn't what he wanted ,so I stopped him and told him that I should not be in the car since it was not well seen and was against my principles. He tried to convince me and I resisted, he said that I was old enough to refuse to be with him because most of the girls of my age had already had sexual experiences with young people, but I was proud of having respected myself 20 years since for me the respect owed it to me and my parents. He got upset and we went home and my sister, the next week Damian returned to make an invitation that I accept and as always return home but this time he had convinced me to go home so that my sister and My parents will think that I was already at home which they did not realize that I left without making a noise . Damian was waiting for me near my house and took me to his parents' home since there was no one in his house because his parents They lived in the United States, in that moment I didn't know or didn't want to realize i took the worst decision of my life , the kisses and caresses in that moment I wanted him to stop and I let him know but he said no, i tried to separate him from me but I couldn't do it and He took from me what I had saved so much, I ended up with some bruises on my Left shoulder from the struggle in that moment I cried and I ran home since it was 4 blocks away from his house, on arriving it would be 2 in the morning without realizing my brother Eduardo arrived and told me - what happened- to what I answered -nothing-, i entered the house and I laid down, my little sister was still asleep but I could not fall asleep since the scene of what had just happened passed through my mind again and again.

The days passed and I had not heard from Damian again, what I imagined was that he had returned to U.S. and that he would not return because he had obtained from me what any man wants from a woman.
A month had passed when I realized that I was late and started to get frighten,buy i said nothing so my family would not find out, days past and Damian came back and i let him know that i was already a month and a half late and suspected that Was pregnant, at that moment only smiled and hugged me - He really had a beautiful smile - I think I didn't realize how delicate the situation was we planed on going out the next day since my sister Clara would be 15 years old and had to go To the city to pick and order the invitations and would also to buy a cake for my other sister Alondra since on Monday, November 20 would celebrate her first year of marriage.

It was Monday, November 20, 1995 and at 8 am my sister and I were ready to go to the city, we had made believe that we were going to walk to the other town because in my town the bus didn't pass, Damian would be Waiting close and he would take us as we had planned.
That day we arrived in the city and Damian began to get annoyed about anything and in the end we returned home without ordering the invitations of my sister's quinceañera and without the cake of my sister Alondra.
We arrived home even though it was early, it would be like six o'clock in the afternoon and some of my workmates arrived , Juan came with them and he handed me a letter , just as I was reading Damian arrived and asked what I was reading, I want to had it over but He took it , while reading it he mocked because in that letter my friend confessed his feelings towards me, Damian confronted him and argued, in the end Juan told Damian - I'm going  I hope just you make her happy - he said goodbye just like the others and it was Damian and Me alone, I thought he would start arguing with me but no, at the moment He hugged me and he said - tomorrow I'll take you to work.