He sits and he cries, he lays and he tries, but every day he wishes he could die.
Christien had distracted himself with books and homework and almost anything to keep him from thinking about his life tumbling.
His parents are on him about a drivers license, a job, his fantasy world he escapes to, and much more.
The schoolwork the makes him get headaches and wants to just quit everyday.
The complete loneliness that all he can do is laugh at YouTube Videos and play games, but he had someone that could keep him strong.
He had someone that would help him through and give him a reason to get those things his parents wanted.
He had someone to show him that through schoolwork he could get a great education.
He had someone who would take away his loneliness and make him feel loved, as he loved her. He had the perfect woman in his life.
He had.
Now it's gone.
He struggles with trying to get motivation for a Job and doesn't even wanna try to get a license.
He barely does his school work and is slowly going down in grades, from a 3.5 to a 3.0.
He's back to the videos and games, sitting there lonely while others have the time of their lives and live better than him.
He's dying inside, he's lost all that kept him sane. How was he to know she was unhappy?
He wouldn't have known, he had his own problems and was busy trying to keep the two together.
Now he sits there, picking up whatever shattered pieces of his heart are left, and hunting down the parts she took.
I don't care how people respond to this, The only thing I have left to lose now is my sanity.
But it doesn't look like ill have that very long either.
