(This whole thing might be a little emotional just a warning )
Me and my twin Shelby were conceived in Atlanta in a hotel room for a medical convention. When I was just a little fetus I could hear my parents... I heard my mom at the abortion clinic but my dad busted in the room and they started yelling at each other. My mom forfeited and had us. She didn't know it was twins.
When I was born the first person I saw was my daddy. He nicknamed me princess Alexis. I just looked at him and know he was my daddy and I smiled at him. He told me a lot of times that my smile made angels sing -gets emotional- he said we saved his marriage to our mom. My mom tried her best to love us but couldn't with the hospital job she had.
Me and Shelby were like Inseprable twins. My dad was basically our mom and dad. He did a great job at both jobs and his real job.
When me and Shelby were 5 (Jayden was born) I was physically (sexually ) hurt by my uncle. No one heard me scream. Shelby was a deep sleeper. I screamed and cried for my dad and he didn't show. I wanted to tell someone but couldn't because I was a little kid and he could hurt me more than he is now.
I held on till I was 10. When the accident happened. On June 5, 2007 me and my parents went to get dinner with my uncle and aunt for my stupid elementary school report card and a drunk driver crashed into my dads truck. I was in the backseat, looking at my daddy who was cadupulted out of the car and on the windshield. I remember seeing him bleed and start screaming to him to live for me and Shelby and Jayden. I keep having the dreams. I have the dreams about my uncle raping me. I still feel the impact of the car that hit us. Everything went into slow motion. I see the car hit us. Everyone in the car goes forward and I see the windshield break and my dad goes flying. I see me in the backseat screaming. At the last moment of his life he opens his eyes and all I can hear is his voice..... he says "I love you princess Alexis I hope someone treats you like a queen". His eyes go crying and everything for me goes black......
I wake up and my sister Shelby and jay is there.... they have tears in there eyes. I asked them what happened.... they said mommy and daddy are gone and buried. I cried for months, I starved myself for months, I was a twig. They were gone forever. They wouldn't see my first date, first homecoming, driving test, first boyfriend, first heartbreak, first car, first kiss, prom, graduation, wedding proposal, wedding, kids. They would miss all this. I sometimes wish I wasn't born and Shelby was. I don't know why but my mom could handle Shelby more and not me. I wish we never went to dinner that night 😭 my cousins Ryan and Aaron found out about their father and I because they saw the bruises and they promised to protect me always.
I finally got over it when I got asked out by my nextdoor neighbor when I was a freshman in high school. We have been friends for years and we went to a football game for our first date. By the end of junior year we've been dating for 3 years and the party happened. He slipped a date rape drug in my drink and I didn't know. It was a party to celebrate the end of junior year. That moment I blacked out and by the time I woke up I was sore and didn't know what happened. A few weeks go by and I start throwing up. My sister bought me a test and I took it. It was positive. I was 18 and pregnant with the guy I've always loved. Seems like a dream come true right???? Well wrong! He ran when that word came out of my mouth. I cried and cried. So many nights I cried myself to sleep. I thought of my parents and wondered if they would be proud of me.
December 12 sam and Ashton Sanderson were born a month early. I cried happy tears when I saw their face. They were so handsome and they were all mine. I could feel my father smiling down on me and them. That year in 2015 I graduated and I graduated as the valedictorian with two babies on my hips. I was proud of myself
I went into the same field as my father because I loved kids and babies......
The next biggest shock of my life was thanksgiving 2016 I got a call from my long lost sister I didn't know I had...... Isabella❤️ she's my baby sis..... she's so special to me. My mom came with her and we had some words. She called me a whore for dressing in dresses and skirts..... she called me a mistake baby.... she called me a daddy's girl and I got pissed off and walked away but that's when I got slapped I can still feel the stinging of my cheek..... I slapped her back and she pushed me.... I had enough of this and got in my mustang with my baby sis and here I am
I've been called names like a bad mother
Whore
Hoe
Slut
Idiot mother for having 3 kids by 20
Mistake baby
All I know is I'm my daddy's angel and I'm sticking to that
Bring it on 👊
