Parties

I messed up.

I started to think about my problems, mostly the way I feel, the way I make other feel.
I'm barely happy most of the time, I only act happy around David so he doesn't become concerned or worried about me. Because then that's a problem for him, and I feel like I create a lot of problems w other people.
That's probably why nobody really hangs out w me, I would be invited to parties. But I would decline them and make up an excuse to make seem as if I was busy that day. I bet no one likes me. I feel horrible almost everyday.
That's when I decided I think I should leave everyone alone and leave them happy w their life.

I even decided I think I should leave David alone. Because tbh what's the point of a having a relationship when on one is happy. I'm basically never happy, and I don't think David is ever happy when he has to deal w all the problems I have almost everyday.

I don't know if I should call it quits w David. My head is telling me yes, but I'm heart isn't telling me the opposite.
And I think I'm gonna go w....I'm gonna go w what my head is telling me. Yep, I think I've made a good choice. Omg finally in my life I've made a good decision.
I'm gonna call him rn, or should I text him..?
*5 mins later*

*ring ring ring ring*

David- hello
Liza-David I'm sorry
David- what
Liza- I'm sorry for everything, I'm sorry for how I've made you feel, I'm sorry that it has to be this way
David- Liza where is this coming from. Are you ok
Liza- I'm...im fine,
David- then where is this coming from
Liza- David I'm sorry it has to be this way but..i-i-
David- I what Liza?
Liza- I-im breaking up with you
David- Liza
Liza- I'm sorry David, this is for the best
David- Liza I love you, just explain why you are feeling this
Liza- no David I'm sorry
David- Liza explain
Liza- David I said no
David- Liz-
Liza- I SAID NO DAVID JUST LEAVE ME ALONE
David- Liz-
*liza hangs up*

* Liza starts to cry a lot *
Why am I like this, *sniff* what's wrong w me.
I've made everyone hate me I've made David hate me...I've even made myself hate me. *balls her eyes out* I don't wanna live like this anymore, I don't want anyone to see me like this.

•I don't want to do this anymore, I don't want to live like this anymore....I don't want to live anymore•
I'm useless, I'm stupid, no one likes me, I'm ugly, I'm worthless, I'm horrible, I'm disgusting.

•I don't want to do this anymore, I don't want to live like this anymore.... I don't want to live anymore•

A/N- I'm back, and I will try my hardest to post a new chapter every 2 days. I thank you guys so much, and make sure to leave some comments of what you hope to expect next chapter. 💗💗