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lonesome.

I feel....lonely.

I have no one anymore, I've completely separated myself from everyone. I've separated myself from everyone that made me happy, everyone that loved me, everyone that could've helped me with how I am right now.

I messed big time!

it feels so weird to not have anyone w you, completely alone. I'll admit...I do miss everyone, I miss gabbie, I miss Kristen, I miss Zane, I miss Alex, I miss..... I miss David. I miss David the most, does he miss me??.
he hasn't called or texted me or anything. does he not care about me anymore?, did he feel the same way?, has he already moved on?.

i regret absolutely everything that I've done in the past 2 days. I've never hated myself and my decisions so much 💔💔.

I want to talk to so someone.
I want to unleash my emotions to someone.
I would usually talk to David but I.....
you know what, I'm gonna text David.
hopefully it isn't awkward.

liza- David...
.........
David- what 😕.

Liza- do you hate me?

David- no, I hate what you did

Liza- David I'm so so so sorry. I've just been so depressed lately that I thought if I seperated myself from everyone my feelings might change and I might become better.

David- why haven't you told me any of this

Liza- I'm sorry David, I felt if I tell you about my problems, your gonna have problems too. And I don't want you to have to worry about me all the time

David- Liza I'm ALWAYS here for you, but what you did yesterday really hurt me

Liza- I regret everything I did, I'm very very sorry. is it ok if you can come to my apartment

David- idk Liza, it's gonna be awkward

Liza- I know David, but we'll work it out.

David- fine, when should I come?

Liza- now, or whenever today

David- I'll come now

Liza- ok see you

David- yep

Liza- david

David- what

Liza- I love you

David- I love you too, I always have, and I always will ❤️❤️.

Liza- 😘😘

hopefully this goes well...