I can't stop over thinking it.. how can I do this without potentially ruining our friendship? But I can't keep this to myself any longer, I need to tell her how I feel. **Warning mature content - I would make it 18+ but I'm no prude and I believe an...
I'm rewriting this forward for any new readers who might stumble upon this, I started writing this (almost six months ago) with little to no expectations and not a lot of reason or experience. If you can stomach this first chapter and continue reading hopefully you will notice improvement in my writing and you will enjoy it. PS Yeah this will involve some R rated scenes, if you can get through all the fluff.
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Its December 2016, just after Christmas and BABYMETAL has some time off until after New Years.
YUI'S POV
After spending Christmas with my family, Moa and I decided to hangout for a few days while her parents are else where visiting friends (you know how she is, she hates being alone at night!!)
We met each other early this morning and spent the day shopping, going to the movies and just hanging out. After going out for dinner we headed back to her house.
Currently I'm pacing around her bedroom (while she is in the shower) because the stress and tension has finally caught up with me, I'm starting to get a kink in my neck so I stop walking and try to massage it before I get a headache.
A song is on repeat in my head..After realizing my feelings are real I started to look for more LGBT films and music so that I can have something to relate to and help me through my self realization. Just recently I found an American transgender woman called "Anohni" who makes such beautiful music and now her song "Drone bomb me" is helping me through this crisis.
Suddenly I hear her singing some c-ute song in the shower and I smile to myself. Her voice soothes me and I lose myself for a second ... I remember the first time her voice did something to me, it was when we were seniors in Sakura Gakuin. Her voice had matured so much during the last year and since we were now seniors we had more solos in our songs. It was after recording "Heart no Hoshi" and I was listening to it for the first time fully complete, after the bridge when Moa sings "Its okay, close your eyes" I felt something inside me. All at once I felt soothed but also like my fingers and toes were tingling. After that point I always looked forward to hearing her voice.
She and I had been best friends for such a long time, we would comfort each other and joke around and be affectionate like all other Japanese girls our age. But it all changed for me after that.. You know.. Moa is an affectionate girl, she loves to tease other girls by touching them and following them around. She always has a "crush" on some kawaii female idol. I just wish that idol was me..
You have no idea the struggle it was to be around her all the time while these new feelings started to sprout, and watch as she gave attention to all the other Sakura girls. It was the most confusing time of my life, I didn't understand this feeling, could it really be jealousy? Why would I be jealous of my best friend treating our other friends with affection? I do it too! WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY??
