I can't stop over thinking it.. how can I do this without potentially ruining our friendship? But I can't keep this to myself any longer, I need to tell her how I feel. **Warning mature content - I would make it 18+ but I'm no prude and I believe an...
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YUI'S POV
Normal routine, normal morning, normal school..normal, normal, normal.
That's what I try to convey going about my day, but on the inside extraordinary things are always happening.
Nobody knows about these feelings that I have, nobody knows the amount of effort it takes to keep my composure, nobody knows about this love that I have, nobody knows.
Nobody knows about her.
I am a female actress.
I smile on the inside when I think of being with her, I cry on the inside when I think of being without her. On the outside I'm just normal.
I've never once in my life considered writing poetry but she has made me a poet, I could write a million poems about her. Now I know why there are so many songs about love and so many about heart break.
Love is the greatest inspiration in life.
I pity those who have never felt this way, how can a person live without knowing love like this? I also envy those who have not felt this way, how can a person live with this much intensity?
A love like ours can move mountains, it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. I understand that now.
I've never been a fighter but for her I would risk my life, I would die if I knew it meant she could live, I would jump off a building if I knew it would make her happy. I now know why love can drive people insane.
I was a child when I met her but now I am older and wiser, with the knowledge of love I feel as if I hold the world in my palms when really it's just her face. She is my world. How can one person mean so much?
I am a lover. I am her lover.
Yet on the outside - normal, normal, normal.
I want to keep this secret to myself, secret hand holds, secret messages, secret love. I want to keep her my secret forever.
But then I want everyone to know she is mine. I want people to know that I get all of her. No one else knows her like I do, no one else ever will, no one can have her except me and I want them to know it.
I'm slowly going crazy with these whirling thoughts that move fast and hit as quickly as lightning, while on the outside I remain - normal.
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It's lunch and the classroom is crowded. Most people brought their own lunches as opposed to venturing out into the cold.
I am awoken out of my poetic stupor by my friend nudging me in the ribs, I look up from my bento to see her nod her head forward. I turn my gaze and see Mitsuke surrounded by a group of boys, all pushing him towards me..
Oh no...I had hoped it wouldn't happen like this.
"Uh, hey Mizuno-san.. do you have an answer?" He looks determined but somewhat reluctant.
