My Sweet Noel

Soon

It had been almost 6 months since I have seen Noel. Sure it's been hard but that's what comes with love am I right? Whoever said if was easy?

"Ethan, dinner" Dean called from downstairs.
"Coming"
I suppose it's rather strange. We still gather around a table and eat together.
The dogs gathered at our feet staring up at us intensely as we ate our dinner.
"So, Ethan, when is Noel coming back out here you reckon?" Anthony asked following his statement with a mouthful of mashed potatoes.
I felt my heart drop.
"Soon" I faked a smile.
I knew I didn't know when. I was lost. How can I possibly know? She can't just get away again, it was hard enough to get her dad to agree to let her out the last time. And we lied to get her out here. We can't use the same excuse can we? Probably not. Dean clearly isn't the reason to fly across country again. I'll figure it out. You just watch.

"Cool! I'd love to see her again, she's very pleasant to be around, and you sure as hell lit up when she was here"
I rolled my eyes and blushed slightly.
"No shit. I love her"
Dean chuckled and turned to me.
"So, is there any way we can help get her out here?" He took a sip of water.
"It's not the simply guys, I have to get permission from her father and get him to agree to pay for the tickets. John can't do that again I won't ask him to pay again it's expensive"
Dean sighed and looked at me compassionately.
"Well, it doesn't hurt to try right?"
"I'm 23 Dean, she's 16 years old. I can't expect her father to let her come spend a time with her older boyfriend. I doubt he's even excepted the fact that that's who I am to her" I slammed my hand down roughly onto the table.
"Easy, I didn't mean to pick at a sensitive subject. We'll find a way. I promise" dean tries to reassure me.
"I understand you're only trying to help but it's nearly an 8 year age difference, her father will never understand, what's the use in even trying. My only option is going there" I said softly trying to regain my cool.

I sat up and looked at Anthony and then back at dean.
"Thanks for dinner, I'm going to bed"
Without letting them respond I walked upstairs and slammed my door collapsing onto my bed. I lay face down into my pillow for a few minutes. Breathing heavily due to lack of oxygen. Annoyed I turned my head and stared blankly at the bedroom window.
DING. My phone hummed with vibration against the bedside table. I ignored it. Again if went off. The loud, annoying ding echoed through the room.
"Ugh what" I angrily grabbed my phone and looked at the lock screen to see who was texting me. It was her.

Noel: "hey baby, I haven't heard from you in a while, just checking in. I don't mean to pry"

I hesitated and stared blankly as the screen turned off again. I sighed and unlocked my phone staring at the keys not knowing how to reply. Slowly I began to type.
"Horrible, I miss you, I need you. Why can't your dad just understand that we" I paused. Shaking my head I deleted the message and wrote another.

Me: "I'm fine, thanks for checking in. Busy day, yourself baby?"

I set my phone down beside me and turned onto my back, blankly staring at the ceiling waiting on her reply. It buzzed and I turned and looked at the lock screen.

Noel: "that's fantastic. I've been alright, some bitch at school keeps starting shit. Don't worry though, I have it under control, don't get me wrong I'm not scared to break a whores nose"

I chuckled and with a swipe of my finger I opened my phone back to my messages.

Me: "yes baby, break her nose make her pay 😂"

Why was I encouraging this? Yet another reason her dad wouldn't let me be with her. I'm encouraging bad behavior in her. Noel is a sweet person, a kind person. Would and couldn't hurt a fly. Not on purpose. She's an angel. I'm changing her and I fear it's for the worst.

Me: "I'm heading to sleep, I know it's early I'm just exhausted. Mentally and physically, I love you, goodnight"

I clicked the lock screen and rolled over slipping my body under the blanket. I closed my eyes and lay in silence, waiting for slumber to consume me.