The Ups and Downs(coming soon)

8 - Adoption

As soon as I got home I wanted to cry. I ran up to my room and threw myself on my bed crying and sobbing. My life is just falling apart first Henry then I got pregnant. I cant handle having kids right now there is so much I wanna do with my life. I have dreams I can't give up my life for a mistake.

I rolled onto my side and looked out my window and watched the wind blow through the trees. I wiped my face and turned on my stomach but quickly turn on my side once I felt a sharp pain in my stomach.

Soon enough every one started to come home from work and school. I didn't bother coming out of my room I just wanted to be alone. I couldn't face anyone.

"Honey it's time for dinner. Come down and eat." My mom said through my door.

"Okay mom... Be down in a sec." I yelled as I got up to stretch. I went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. My face was a little puffy and my eyes were red. I washed my face and looked in the mirror one more time and notice my small baby bump. I shook my head and walked out my room then down the stair to eat dinner.

"Hey Rose how was school?" Travis asked but it was obvious he really didn't care.

"It was great.." I told him as I sat down just as Dad brought the food out and set it down on the table. We said our grace then ate together. I was too deep in thought to eat as I thought about what I'm gonna do with the babies..... My babies.

"Honey what's wrong you've barely eaten?" My mom asked and I looked to at her.

"Mom..... I don't know what I should do..."

"What do you mean?"

"I don't know if I should keep the babies..... " the table went silent and everyone looked at me."I mean I'm young I have a full life ahead of me and there are things I still wanna do before I have kids....Do you think I should give them up?"

"Um.....It's all up to you honey....What do you wanna do?"

"I don't know....Maybe I should give them up for adoption.They could go to a family that can't have kids and I could go and do things with my life."I told my mom and dad.They looked at me then looked at each other.

"We'll talk about this later..."My dad told me before getting up from the table.I looked down at my food as we all quietly ate our food.

After dinner everyone went up to their rooms beside my mom and I.We were washing dishes together.

"Hun are you going to tell him?"Mom asked me as she dried off the plate.

"I don't know....He seems happy right now...Why should I ruin that."I told her

"You should...It's not right to keep that away from him like this...Just think about it."I nodded my head and she told me to go to bed and she'll finish the kitchen.I gave her a hug before walking up stair to my room.

When I closed my bed room door I stared at my phone think of weather or no I should call Angel right now.Soon I picked up the phone and dialed his number thinking about if I should cal him.then I pressed call and held the phone to my ear.

The phone rang and rang and just as I was about to hang up he picked up the phone.

"Hello?"

"Hey ...Are you busy right now?"

"No why.."

"I need to talk to you....Its important.If its okay I'll come over to tell you."

"Okay."

"okay I'll be over in a bit."I told him before hanging up. I put my phone in my pocket as I put on my shoes.I was so nervous I didnt know what to say or do or how he was going to react but I knew this had to be done sooner or later.

I would just go over there and tell him.I told myself as I walked down the street to his house.I had butterflies in the pit of my stomach that I couldn't stop.The whole walk to his house it was like a zoo was in my stomach and the palms of my hands were so sweaty.

Soon I got to his house and I texted him and he told me to come in through the back door then walk up to his room.I said okay and quietly walked into his house then up to his room.The whole house was dark and quiet since it was 11 pm. For awhile I stood infront of his door think I should just turn back and go him telling him to forget what just happened but before I could turn away he opened his door.

"Thought you got lost or something."Angel smile at me and I gave him a small smile as I tried to calm myself down. I walked in and sat down on his bed as he sat next to me.I looked at him and his hair was all messed up and he was shirtless.

He smiled at me as he leaned in and kissed me and for awhile I kissed him back then as he pushed me back on the bed I remembered what I was doing.Before he could kiss me again I stopped him.

"Angel stop..I came here to tell you something."I told him but he kept going.He kissed and sucked on my neck as he got on top of me making me moan."I really need to tell you something."I told him but it was like I didnt say anything at all."I'm serious...This is why I'm here."

"I know why your here..."He told me as he started to lift up my shirt so I pushed him off.

"Angel theres something I really need to tell you."Angel sighed deeply like he was annoyed with me so I got up off the bed and started to pace up and down the room as I started to bite my nails but quickly stopped.

"Come on and say it if its so important."Angel snapped as he started to put on a shirt but for some reason when he snapped at me I got sad.I just felt so overwhelmed that I began to tear up.

"Why do you have to yell?"I asked as tears started to form in my eyes.Soon my tears started to fall and Angel rolled his eyes as he sighed deeply again."I just really need to say something and your being really rude.."I snuffle.

"They say it.Oh my gosh please just say it."

I nodded as I wiped my tears away..Well tried to but I kept crying."I'm pregnant."I sobbed and Angel stared at me like I was joking."You dont have to do a thing because.I'm giving them up for adoption because I know you wouldn't want kid right now and I can't have kids right down and its just all a mess.I'm so sorry."I sobbed as I sat down in the middle of his room cuddled up in a ball as I cried.

I jumped when I felt Angels arms wrap around me.He held me to his chest and whispered soothing things into my ear till I fell asleep.