The Ups and Downs(coming soon)

10-Worst birthday

Time passed by quickly.Slowly the year started coming to an end and now its winter brake.The time that had passed was kinda a blur, as dumb as it sounds it was like I was sleepwalking through 2 months.Everyday was like the day before and it was like a loop I couldn't escape.Angel and I haven't talked since I told him to leave me alone and my father was distant ever since I caught him in bed with another.He became distant as soon he realized he could buy me happiness.

And for me , as soon as I started swelling up with a big belly I transfer to online classes. Most of the time I just sit in my room.I got a mini fridge when my father seen I didn't wanna come out of my room .I don't even post anything on my Instagram or snap chat. It's like I fell off the face of the Earth. I didn't tell anyone I was leaving, hell I didn't even tell Candace when it first happened then she came marching into my room .I've just been feeling horrible about myself.When I first got pregnant I got skinny mostly in the face and now its like everything is swollen.

I looked at my baby bump in the mirror and pulled on a pull over sweater to hide my stomach .The sweater just made me look fat but I just sucked it up and started my hair so I can get ready to go to a dinner for my moms birthday. My mom is turning 37 today.She had my brother and sister when she was 16 with my dad but they broke up, my mom gave my brother and sister to my grandmother till she was done with college then after that my parents got back together moved in together and once they got a study income the took back the twins then I came then 10 years later my younger siblings came along.

Anyway I put my hair in two braids and slicked down my edges then did my makeup just a simple natural makeup look.When I was done I put on my green Fenty bow slides.I looked at myself and was satisfied with myself and grabbed my mcm bag and put my phone my charger, some makeup, and money. I'm not gonna even lie, when my dad was buying me things I took advantage and was buying anything I wanted just because I could and my dad couldn't say anything.

I walked down the stairs and went into the kitchen looking for a snack before I left.I looked in the pantry looking for some crackers or something but we didn't have any so I grabbed the cereal box of fruit loops and sat there debating on if I should take the box of just put it in a baggie and besided to put the box into my bag.

Quickly I ran out to my car and put the purse in my front seat then left to go to dinner.

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I got to the restaurants before my mom, aunt, and grandmother because they went shopping so I sat us down at a outside table because the nice view of the beach.I at there on my phone going through my insta looking at memes with my earphones in listening to Cardi b. I love her.I was listening to red barz

I felt a pat on my should and looked up and my grandmother and aunt sat down next to me then my mom in front.I smiled at her."Happy birthday mom."I pulled a card from out of my bag."Here ."My mom took the card and read what i put in the card.

"To my beautiful mother.You have been there through everything.Your more then I could ever want.You were there to wipe my tears, pat my back when I was sad, always giving me the best advice.And most of all your my best friend.I'm the luckiest person.I have the best mom anyone could have. I love you."My mom read out loud.She looked up at me and smiled with tears in her eyes."Thank you baby."

"Your welcome mom."I smile."........Now lets eat."I said making my mom laugh.

We continued to laugh and talk while waiting on my brother and sister.They were running late because they had mid terms, but they should be here in awhile and my dad could't make it because of "work". I just shook my head when I heard that knowing damn well that was a lie.Soon enough they started taking about boring stuff so I zoned out and started looking around the restaurant.Not long after my brother and sister came.