love is...

Give up!

 My mind always told me to "Leave and advance,"
But my heart told me that I still have a chance.

So I listened to my heart and gave it a shot,
It was a bad choice, now look at the misery and failure It brought.

I thought I'd have a chance, so I kept holding on,
But I know that the last ray of hope is gone.

Sadly, it was you, the boy I trusted the most,
Who left me feeling empty, just like a ghost.

Today, the little hope I had inside, you killed.
I don't know why you destroyed something you helped build.

I must have been crazy to even try,
Because all it did was crush me inside and make me cry.

And I cry only if there's too much to hide.
Like right now because I've got nothing inside.

It has been about 5 times I have tried,
And all those 5 times, I've been denied.

I remember the rejections, you bet I remember them.
So I just sit here and write about it in this poem.

I remember the tears I cried and I shed,
But the pain feels like I bled red instead.

You can taunt me all you want and call me a quitter,
But I give up 'cause I have been treated like litter.

I actually almost thought I'd get to be with him.

"Huh? What's that? you think I've been used?"
That don't bother me. To me that's normal news.

I got nothing to lose, nothing to gain.
I'm fed up of all this miserable pain.

So when someone tells me to try again,
Why should I bother? Nothing will change.

I know it will always be the same result.