Kismat Connection

Part 9

Arjun stood on the sit out......he was still in the aftermaths of whatever happened a little while ago.......Why did he think about Roshni? Why did her face come to his mind at that point? He was in a self analyzing mode......

It wasn't just attracton or lust that he felt for Riya and he was quite sure about it...it wasn't a momentary attraction that made him get intimate with her.....but then why wasn't he able to go ahead?? NO it wasn't guilt or a feeling of betrayal towards Roshni.....He knew Roshni too well......Roshni would, herself wish that he moves ahead in life...Moving ahead with Riya would only double her joy....Whereever she was, she would be praying for his happiness as she always did.........

So the feeling of betraying her wasn't a concern for him......It that was the case, he wouldn't have, in the first place, married Riya.....

Then what was it?? he didn't know.....but he had to find out......

What mistake did poor Riya do to get entangled like this in his life??? She only wanted to help him....support him during the worst of times! He knew how hurt Riya would be by this one instance.......but talking about it would only mean poking into her wound further.......

All such random thoughts were running in his mind and he stood there for a long time before he decided to rest the matter for now....and yeah, he would get it all sorted out and get answers to his questions before speaking to Riya......he couldn't let his stray thoughts confuse her........

He came into the bedroom and saw her preparing to sleep on the couch.....He was worried by the sudden distance again......all his efforts to close the distance had gone for a toss and everything seemed to be back to square one......No, he wasn't going to allow that.......or may be start afresh as if nothing ever happened.......

He concealed his inner turmoil and walked to her...."Riya, utto....utto aur bed mein jaakhe so jaao......"

Riya: nahi sir......main yahi teek hoom.......its very comfortable!!!

Arjun: couch kitna comfortable hai, yeh tum mujhe matth bathaao......jo kahaa hai, woh karo!

Riya: aap jaakhe aaraam se so jaahiye......don't worry about me......

Arjun: ek hi blanket hai aur woh bed pe hai.......yahaan ke thandh tho tum dekh hi chukhae ho......phir bhi siddh, huh??? [when Riya stood expressionless, he decided to give up] well, in that case......okay!!

Arjun went to the bed......as if to show off, pulled the quilt to his side and made himself comfortable.......Riya stood there helplessly and half minded about it......She wanted to get in there too but then she was stubborn......her egoistic mind was taking a upper hand.....how could she go now??? Why didn't he call her once more??? Why didn't he force her??? Her stupid heart was aching while her logical side smirked at her heart "get a grip Ri.......tumhe kya lagaa, ke woh tumhe baahom mein uttaake le jaayega.....for god's sake, wake up from ur dreams! Ussne tumhe ek baar bulaaya tha na??? kyun nahi gayi??? Ab bhi jaa sakthi ho.....chup chaap jaao, aur aaraam se so jaavo!! Warna kal subah tak freezer se nikhli hui lagogi..."

But she opted against it.......She pulled her jacket and shawl tightly and lay on the couch.......hugging herself and all curled up......the shawl was too short for her.....if she covered her head, her legs were out and the vice versa........

Her restlessness was well noticed by him but he didn't call her......he knew that if he called her, her adamance would top up...She would say NO just to disobey him....her, otherwise subtle stubborn attitude wasn't hidden from him.....it was better to leave her alone for a while......he felt that she would come to the bed when it becomes totally unbearable......