Im finally up dating im so sorry guys softball has had me wrapped up!
If you think my past couldn't get any worse oh but it does. It got even worse the day i met my ex best friend Amanda, I knew she was a huge party girl and she had a horrible repuation but I had always thought i could change her. That planned quickly back fired she was the one that changed me for the worse.
Flash back
I knew i had to quit i was just hurting myself. It helped with my pain and i had no atention of quiting anytime soon.
I climbed out my window with the bottle of cotton candy voldka and some pills that I had bought from a guy that i knew from school. I carried it in hand and made my way to the creek behind the house, I just wanted to drink my problems away.Everything that was happening to me in mylife and with my very abusive dad i justed wanted to escape. I want to escape my consant pain that i was living in. I know Jeff was worried sick to about me but he didn't understand what i was going though, and sometimes i wished he never cared at all.
I slowly twisted off the top to my voldka and slowly began to drank it, it calmed me down when it hit the back of my throat. It didn't take me long to get a buzz.
I knew in that moment that i wanted to take my life, I was tired of living, I was done with life in general and was tired of hurting. I missed my mom and I was ready to see her again, I would miss jeff but he would have ti understand.I jumped into the deep creek and let myself float to the bottom, I seen my life flash before my eyes. I seen all the great times that Jeff and I had together, I seen all the laughs and pranks that Matt and I pulled on Jeff, I seen the memories that Mom and I had before she passed. I was ready to leave this world and never look back. I was just about to pass out and die when someone was drapping me out, my body was going limb
" Wake up Jasmine. Please don't leave me!"
I reckonized that voice. It was Jeff.
I started to cough to let the water out of my lungs. I was so mad with him.
" Why did you save me?! I wanted to die!!!"
He got quiet.
" How did you know I was here?"
" I tired to call you and I got no answer and I had a weird feeling that you might try something."
He slowly picked me up and carried me to his car.
" Where are we going?"
" Back to my place. I'll get you some clothes."
" Wait..my dad."
" I'll take care of your dad, don't worry," he said kissing my head.
I closed my eyes and started to cry I was so close to see momma again but it got snatched from me like everything else. I was happy that someone cared but angry to because I didn't want to live anymore. I felt like i was a huge disappointment to my family and to my friends, I felt like thats why my grandparents have nothing to do with me.
I saw Jeff jogging back to his car with a suitcase full of my stuff. He looked like he was scared to death and he was afraid I wasn't going to make it. At this point in my life I didn't and really didn't care if i made it.
" You are staying the night with me."
" My dad will flip out if he found out that I was staying the night."
" Calm down I have already told him, I made up something."
" Okay."
" Now relax and get some sleep."
" Okay," I said slowly begining to doze off.
TWENTY MINS LATER
" Wake up sleepy head," Matt said slowly waking me up. " how you feeling?"
" Like I have been hit by a truck," I said laughing a little. " where is jeff?"
" He is outside on the porch. You want to go out?"
I nodded. " Can you help me up? I feel so weak."
He helped me slowly to get up, I whole body was in horrible pain.
" Hey you," I said sitting by Jeff " thank you by the way," I said kissing his cheek.
He tried to hide his blush. " I'm just glad you are okay."
