Namjin One Shot Collections

I was just afraid

Summary: Jin and Namjoon are dating but they're afraid that people might judge them and the only solution that they thought of is to hide it from their family and friends

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Jin's POV
Being in this situation is hard, pretending not to feel anything towards your secret lover and hiding your sexuality

I love Namjoom with all my heart and soul, I really do but we're afraid of what others might say, so we decided to keep it hidden and endure the urge of holding each others hands in public and show them how much we love each other

One day, Namjoon decided that we should tell them even if they oppose. If they accept us for what we really are then we will be really happy but if they're disgusted and avoid us then there's nothing we could do but being the coward I am, I avoided the suggestion and changed the topic but I guess I made the worst decision ever.

Namjoon got angry at me and accused me of being ashamed of him and our relationship, he was on the verge of crying when he said the most common words a person could use but unexpectedly made a very painful impact in my heart

"I guess you never loved me Jin, Let's break up"

He ran away after saying that, I tried to chase him but he was damn fast because of his long legs

I lost track of him and after that incident I never heard anything from him, I don't know where is now or how he's doing, he doesn't have anybody he only has me

Namjoon is a shy person and the reason behind that is because his parents beats him until he passes out

So when from the moment we dated I became his home,his comfort zone but now that he's gone. No one leans on my shoulder whenever he cries, no one hugs me whenever he feels  sad and alone

Since Namjoon and I broke up my life became miserable, now that hes he's out of sight and out of touch I am no longer afraid to show the world how I love him, I don't care what people might say about us but what's the use of my confidence when he's nowhere to be found and I can no longer show him that I am sincere and I love him with all my heart

I'm walking down the street going to the bar ready to drown myself in alcohol, when I saw Him

The reason why im miserable and the person whom I pushed away because i was scared, i am asshole i know

I ran after him because he was about to cross the street and im scared i might lose him again

"NAMJOON! WAIT!" I shouted but i guess he didn't hear me and he succesfully crossed the street but that didn't stop me from trying to get him back so I crossed the street never tearing my eyes away from him

*BOGSH!*

*chuckles* I guess I didn't notice the truck, karma's really a bitch ey? I didn't even get to say goodbye to him

Seconds felt like years, I was enduring the pain the whole time until I felt like im going to pass out due to the loss of blood, how did I know you ask? Let's just say i can feel the blood oozing out of my head and the last thing I saw was Namjoon's crying face begging me to wait until we get to the hospital

Im sorry joonie, but I guess i wont make it and I love you...so damn much

*blackout*

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I guess we all know what happened next, right guys? Haha I'll leave everything to your imagination

Ciao