Chapter 2.
two weeks later...
When I left the house and reached the park I saw Trian walking back and forth and then hitting himself he seemed pretty stupid, cute and…nervous.
When he saw me his face went white. Like a plain, new sheet of paper them he smiled at me and said “hey, how are you?” I was shocked to hear his voice trembling. I couldn’t reply back and just stayed wondering at him.
He seemed to get still for a moment then shook his head and kept looking at the ground after a while he said “I am sorry, I know you must be wondering why I told you to meet me,”
“And why it was so urgent?” I added
“Right.” He smiled.
“So?” I waited for an answer but it never came, just stayed looking at the ground that both of us were standing on.
“I...umm…I really don’t know how to say this but…” he stopped again so I decided to help because obviously it was hard for him to say what he wanted to say.
“But what? What do you want to say?”
“I just wanted to say that…okay I will say this very fast…I like you, I really do, I was attracted to you from the first day I saw you, first I was hesitant but now I can’t stand it anymore it’s too strong for me to bear, I think I’m in love with you” and he crushed his lips to mine.
He kept kissing me once, twice, trice. I didn’t fight but I didn’t kiss him either I was too shocked and had to grasp what he just said, then after two minutes or so he noticed that I didn’t respond so shyly he pulled away, looked at me, dropped his eyes and then shook his head.
“I’m sorry, I really am, I just didn’t know what happened to me, I couldn’t resist” I just stayed looking at him in wonder and surprise I couldn’t say anything, I sure do like him but I don’t think I am in love with him…at least not yet.
“Selen?” Trian asked in embarrassment.
“What?”
“Say something please” he begged
“What do want me to say? I’m in love with you too?”
“I hope so, yes”
“Well I don’t think so.”
“What?”
“I think you heard me, look to be honest I do like you, I just don’t love you…at least not yet”
“Are you saying that you don’t want me?” he really did look hurt which really bugged me; I couldn’t stand seeing him like this.
“No it’s not that, I mean I do like you, I swear-“
“I don’t want you to swear” he shook his head.
“But I do I-“
“I SAID I DON’T WANT YOU TO SWEAR I WANT YOU TO TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME” he burst and threw his hands in the air.
“AND I THINK I TOLD YOU THAT I DON’T, I’M SORRY IF THIS IS A DISSAPIONTMENT FOR YOU BUT…. I don’t love you. I’m sorry” I whispered then looked around and I noticed several people looking at us so I just turned my back from Trian not wanting him to answer and hurried back home so that he doesn’t follow me.
When I reached home I went to my room right away because I knew Trian was going to come after a while. But he didn’t. I actually felt so guilty for saying that but he shouted at me and I really hate that, my mom doesn’t even dare to scold me so he will definitely not be the one to do that.
