Wonder >> Harry Styles

Chapter 1

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Wonder: Chapter 1

"I love you." those words kept repeating over and over in my mind as I held the razor to my skin. I don't want to do this but I can't help it. I love Harry and I would do anything for him, but the night he came home and saw what I was doing. We had gotten into a fight...

*Last Week*

I was cutting and heard the door open I quickly tried to close the bathroom door and lock it before Harry had noticed what I was doing. I was clean for a little over five days but I had a sudden urge and I just had to do it. I guess I wasn't fast enough because Harry had stuck his foot in front of the door when I was just a few inches away from closing it. "Rebecca, stop don't do this. I love you I can't see you do something so harmful to yourself." Harry says as he quickly takes the razor from my hands and takes a towel to wipe up blood. "Harry, you know I try." I say waiting for what he has to say. "Maybe you have to try a little harder..." He says dragging the last word. "What the hell Harry! You know I try as hard as I can. It's not my fault I can't handle the fame like you can." I say yelling as I run out the door in our room slamming the door and jump onto the bed with tears streaming down my face. Does he not think I'm trying hard enough? Does he not believe me? I'll never know why he would say that, but I can wonder why. I hear the door open and sniffles coming from Harry's nose, I think he's been crying also. I just don't understand why he would do that to me. We have been dating for over a year now and he knew that I have had this problem ever since I was 14. I can't help it and I feel like I will never stop, but when I do stay clean I need someone to believe me, motivate me. Not make me feel like crap and worthless all the time.

"Rebecca, I'm so sorry." He says laying on the bed next me stroking my head. "Save it Styles." I say rudely. "Just hear me out, please." "Harry if you're here to say more horrible things about me then just break up with me. I mean you obviously don't even care anyways." I say sitting up and facing him. "Rebecca I love you so much! I could never go a minute without you in my life. I'm sorry I said that it's been a really stressful day. And if you think fame is easy for me it's not and I'm sorry I dragged you into it. We tried to keep this relationship a secret but it didn't work and I'm sorry. But I love you so much, please Rebecca forgive me. I can't stand it when you're mad at me." His taking his hand and holds my neck while leaning to give me a kiss. I jerk back saying; "You really think you can let me off that easy, oh please Styles you could do better." I say with a smirk. "Shut up and kiss me." He says holding me towards him.

*End of Flashback*

Even though everything had seemed to go back to normal there was that little bit of fear building up inside me. I slit my wrists and I start to feel guilt wash over my body. Even though Harry had seemed fine quickly after our little fight or argument I feel like he is ashamed of me. I mean we really do love each other; we are in love with one another. No one can hold us back we were made for each other. But so many people doubt our relationship; our parents, our friends, fans, and even some other celebrities. But why you may ask, it could be because I self harm or because they're jealous. I highly doubt they are jealous but we will never know the true answer, but we can wonder why. 

It's been a few hours and Harry should be home soon. I'm making dinner; pizza since I'm too lazy to make anything special. After I had put the pizza in the oven I mentally face-palmed myself because I could've just ordered some but too late now, I guess. Harry comes just in time to eat and he greets me with a lovely kiss on the cheek while I set the table. "How was your day Babe?" I ask Harry. "Fine, the usual." He replies with a groan as he takes two slices of pizza. "What's gotten you so grumpy, huh?" I say pinching his cheek as he scrunches his nose. "Management mostly and some fans just keep saying things that really shouldn't be said. But let's not get into this okay? I just want to relax and spend my night with you." His says with a sigh and a smile at the end of his sentence. "I respect that." I say with a smile and take a bite of my pizza while Harry giggles. "What's so funny?" "You have sauce on your nose, come here and I'll help you get it off." He says with a smirk and another small laugh. "Really, um okay." I say confused leaning towards him as he takes his tongue and licks the sauce off my nose as we laugh and smile at each other. It's the little things in our relationship that make it so great. We can help one another when we're feeling sad, upset, or depressed. I love him with all my heart and I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend then him. "I love you Styles." I say giving him a kiss as I stick my finger in my pizza and smudge sauce all over his face. "Oh it's on!" Harry yells running to the kitchen and grabbing a jar of sauce. Let's just say the rest of the night was full of us wiping sauce on each other and licking it off after wards. I knew from that moment I accidentally got sauce on my face made his day 110% better.

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Well this is the first chapter, I guess it's not much but good enough to start off with right?? I hope you enjoy! Vote. Comment. Fan. Xoxo ~Liz