My Dear Girl

"You won't hurt me, will you Ritzu?"Yui said. "Never, never as long as I live." I told her."I'd never hurt you Yui, never." She was perfect. The perfect girl, the perfect person. Yui was all I wanted, all I needed. The only thing that could ruin this moment was if we ceased to exist. That wouldn't happen right? Just randomly have the universe disappear? No, that couldn't happen. "I love you Yui. " "I love you too Ritzu." "I always will, as long as I live." Never did I think at first I would get to call Yui mine, I never even considered it. All that I ever thought was that I wanted to make her happy. I wanted to see her without any pain, without fear, just happy. "I will never hurt you Yui. I would never be able to live with myself if I did." I pull Yui into a hug while saying this. Yui lets herself sink into my chest and returns my embrace. We stand there for some time. Hugging and exchanging little to no words. All they can do is just stand there and smile. Yui is the one to break the embrace. She steps back a little bit and brings me into a kiss. It dragged out for what seemed like an eternity. I wished it was accually that long. I had all I wanted, all I needed. Then it happened, my condition took control and I didn't know what happened until the next day.I have Syncope. A medical condition that makes me randomly black out. I don't just fall down like most peoole would I just simply lose track of what I do and can't control what I do. I can sense when I'm going to black out but I can't stop it from happening. All I can do is let it happen. Let myself lose control of my body and not know what I did unless I'm told by somebody afterwards. I can't believe I blacked out while with Yui. I just wish I knew how to keep from blacking out. Maybe I do I just can't do it. But as far as I know I can't stop from losing myself. "Wake up, Ritzu wake up!" Yui was waking me up? Why? What happened? "Yui? Hey what happened yesterday? I can't remember." I felt like she would take that offensively but to my surprise she didn't. "Well you asked me to be your girlfriend, I replied yes and then later after a long hug and kiss you said something about blacking out but not falling and just not knowing what you're doing and losing control over yourself." I cut her off and said "Wait, I said that out loud?" "Yes, you did tell me that." Damn, I wanted to save that for another time. "But after you said that I thought I should take you home so I did because you seemed to now know what you were doing and told your mom what happened and she laid you down and you slept until today and I came back and woke you up. You were asking to talk to me while you were asleep." Ok now I'm just embarrassed. "Well I guess you have something you want to talk about?" Yui said in her most interested voice. "Yeah, I had something I wanted to tell you but it came out already." "I told you yesterday about my condition. I was going to today but it's useless to tell you twice." Wait I did have something I wanted to tell her! "But there's something else I wanted to tell you. I may not have been through your pain but I wanna say I'm here for you, always, no matter what." I saw tears start to form in her eyes. I knew at that moment that my words right then ment alot to her, more than I thought I knew. "Oh Ritzu!" She wraped me in a hug then. Tears falling down her face in long streams into my shirt. "I love you Yui." "I love you too Ritzo." All that I thought of was how she made me felt. She knew how I felt, she knew how to get me to be happy, and she knew I was happy she was there. I could see it in her eyes that she knew how I felt.All that made me happy was having her near me, having her with me. No matter what happens or who tries to break us up, I will keep her her happy as long as I can.