To Whom I Will and I leave

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To whom I will leave,

Tonight, I lay down on my bed.

Thinking about the words that you last said.

Tonight, when I lie down by your side

This will be for the last time, but in my heart, you will forever reside.

At first, I thought we would live forever

But now, I can't just do whatever

I have to leave you and fade away into the night

And you have to face it with all of your might

To you whom I leave,

The wind blows by the city

Without a warning, people started giving me pity

They kept whispering sweet nothings at my deathbed

The words that when I was alive, they never said

Pity me not, for I am happy

Is what you might expect me to say to my family

But those words are things I can never say

For those words mean that I may no longer live, which fills me with dismay

To you whom I will leave,

What is it that you most want to say to me?

Will you say the words that say you love me?

As I lay by your side for the last time

Please say everything you want to say to me, before we run out of time

To you whom I will leave,

The memories of us years ago

Or the memories of us, just moments ago

What is the difference between the two?

If I won't be around to be with you

To you whom I leave,

(Hey you, yes you)

Tell me, what is the difference between those two?

Are you really contented with this version of you?

The you who never told me the words "I love you"?

To you whom I leave,

You will never know how much I wanted to hear you say those words

But a song kept repeating loudly, leaving most of your words unheard

I really wanted to hear them, but I kept hearing the same song

The song kept growing in volume as if your timing was completely wrong

To you whom I leave,

I think you definitely were wrong this time around

You thought we could stay happy together if you stayed on the ground

You never wanted to lift off, you just wanted me around

With regrets in your mind, you will need to lower me into the ground

To you whom I will leave,

Tonight, it will be our last night

Be scared, for tomorrow morning will surely be a fright

The morning when my body finally decides

That it can no longer continue this extremely long fight

To you whom I will leave,

Alas, tomorrow my sickness will get the best of me

But you won't know because you'll be sleeping soundly right next to me

Tomorrow, you will wake up with the corpse of a beloved

Tomorrow, you will discover the true meaning of loneliness and dread

To you whom I will leave,

Tomorrow,  you will experience the feeling of regret

Pondering upon the many words that you never said

The true feelings that you had for me but you could never interpret

The feelings that we had for each other, but sadly never met

To you whom I leave,

Is it alright if I we leave things like this?

Will you say "I love you" or just leave it like this

Will you send me off with an ordinary goodbye?

Or will you say the words I wanted to hear, not from a lie?

TO YOU WHOM I WILL AND I LEAVE,

As for me, it really is hard to say goodbye

To the person I loved, but to whom I was never able to tell my lie

"I hate you" was my greatest lie

And are the words that I can never mean to say to you until I die

Which is very ironic because technically, I really am dead

Without hearing the words I really wanted to be said

Is this day really our final goodbye?

Maybe so, because this is the day that I will die.

FIN

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⏰ Last updated: Sep 15, 2020 ⏰

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