Fading Fast

~Chapter 1 Rain

I pulled the hood from my dark grey sweat shirt over my head trying to keep my hair from getting wet as I walked down the sidewalk.
I stepped in a puddle and stared blankly down at my white rip off version of converse. I watched as the water started to soak through the fabric and make its way to my sock.

Sighing I sat down on a bench not bothering to wipe off some of the water that lay still on the wooden surface soon to be dried up by my favorite pair of miss mee skinny jeans that I got a few years back.

Hmm how things have changed, life was so easy back then

My phone vibrated in my pocket cutting my thoughts short. I looked down at the screen to see Mason was calling. I clicked the answer button and put the phone to my ear.
"Hey Mason, How's it going"I asked my voice raising.
"Horrible. You need to come home, Addy is so annoying!"he said and I could hear Addy screaming in the background something about how she wants to play on the xbox.
A smile crept onto my face as I thought of my little sister Addison and how badly she bothers my brother. For some reason he was always her target. Only I could tame the crazy little munchkin.
"I will be there in a few."I answered saying goodbye and putting my phone back in my pocket.
I debated getting up just yet. I had walked all the way from school my legs were dead. Plus I kinda wanted Mason too suffer a little longer, after all he did eat my cheesecake last night. Stupid butt head how dare he. He thinks since he's the oldest he can do whatever he wants. He's only a year older and he doesn't even act his age.
That was my dessert he had no right to eat it. I leaned back on the bench resting my back on damp wood. Looking around in the foggy air I stared at the street sign from across the road.
It read STONY RD.
Ugh it just reminded me of how much I hate it here. I just wanna get away have a fresh start.
Breaking the connection I glanced at the bench beside me. There sat a boy , about my age I'm guessing. I studied his features. His wet stringy chocolate brown hair glued to his head from the rain. He was wearing a navy blue sweatshirt and had a pair of wet jeans on.
He looked up from his phone and noticed I was sitting there watching him. He smirked and sent me a wink. I scoffed then quickly stood up and began to walk away trying to avoid him. I don't have time for cocky guys .
"Hey."the boy yelled. I kept walking.
Just ignore him.
"Helloooo?"he called out questionably.
I continued walking
"Hey. Are you gonna ignore me?"
Ugh he's not gonna stop.
"What?"I questioned still confused why he's speaking to me. Why would anyone talk to me. It's me for God sakes.
"Well...?" I asked getting aggravated,"do you want something?!" I probably shouldn't have yelled it's just... just...ugh it's a long story I just don't have time for guys after everything that happened.
"Oh, I don't know. Just thought I would say hi. Nevermind forget I said anything I'm sorry for bothering you." He responded awkwardly
I chuckled quietly at his response.
"It's fine." I smiled walking back to the bench to sit beside him, ignoring the voices in my head.
He grinned and I sent him a smile in return. Something about him made gave me a strange feeling. I'm not sure how to describe it.
"Um... Hi." I say bot sure what else to say.
He cracks a big toothy grin," hi."
Well now what.
"Well I have to get going. Have a good day."I tell him getting up again and beginning to walk away. Not wanting to embarrass myself any further.
"Yeah you to." He mumbled looking back down to this phone.
I got to the end of the street and realized I never got his name, but when I turned around he was gone.
Eh who cares just another random guy. Bet if I got to know him he'd treat me exactly the same as they all do. Guys are dicks. They always leave.

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I sighed, closing the front door behind me. I slipped off my coat and hung it in the closet then tugged off my now soggy shoes and threw them onto the floor not really caring if someone tripped over them. As I started marching upstairs, I heard my brother yelling something.
"Addy leave me alone!"he cried. frustration echoing through his voice.
I imedietly slowed down not wanting Addy to know im home. Any other day I would be fine seeing her, but today was not that day. She's a tornado. Running around screaming. I loved her to death but I had no energy to deal with her at the moment.
I peeked around the corner into my brothers room to see Addy trying to pull the controller from his hands. I glanced at the TV screen to see a black beat up BMW swerving around on the road hitting people and running into cars and lamposts every now and then. Irritation sweapt through Mason's voice as he struggled to gain control.
Haha he deserves it.
I quietly crept to my room and closed the door. My feet touched the fluffy purple carpet and I looked around, pleased to be home. My bright teal walls, and white furniture welcomed me in. I walked over to my bed and fell back sinking into the blue and purple puffy blankets.Its been a long day I told myself .
I awoke to the sound of Addy screaming. My door creeked open slowly and I was greeted by my 17 year old brother Mason.
Maybe if I pretend to be asleep he will just go away. As I closed my eyes though, the memories came flooding back.

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August 4th 2017
My heart shook as I stared at the lifeless body resting in my arms. Tears blinded my vision and poured down my face.

Two months before
"Fuck, god I love you so much baby. Don't ever leave me" I smiled hearing his words. The thought of him leaving me was too much to bear.
I gripped his body harder and burried my face into his chest inhaling the amazing smell of cinnamon, and man smell.
There no doubt I was completely and utterly in love with Aaron he held my heart in the palm of his hand. I know I shouldn't trust people this much but he brought out the best in me. Made me feel special. We both kept each other sane. At least that's what I thought at the time.
August 17th 2017
I stood there completely emotionless. I've never hated the color black. Not until now. It held so much hurt and darkness. Bitter and cold. Death. The mirror reflected exactly that. A cold dark canvas of greif and horror. It was the only color I could see anymore.
My freshly aplied mascara was already running down my cheeks. It was ok though, it took the focus away from my red puffy eyes.

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"Ouch" a giant blob landed on me waking me from my thoughts.
My vision blurred and I could feel the ears beginning to erupt.
Mason put a finger to his finger to his lips."I'm hiding from Addy."
"Why in my ro-"my mouth was covered by his hand.
I licked it.
"Ew"he shrieked giving away our hiding spot. Imedietly I pretended to be asleep. My door creeked open and I opened one eye to see.
Addy was standing in the doorway in her pink polly pocket pajamas and her short brown hair was in two tiny braids.
"Found yo-"
"Shhhh, Ave's is sleeping."
She didn't buy it.
I felt the bed sink a little as she climbed up beside me.
"What's wrong Ave?" Her voice came out quiet and scared.
I couldn't hold back the pain anymore and let myself unravel. Tears poured from my eyes and I soon felt four arms wrapped around my body. I sat in Mason's lap and he held me in his arms as Addy sat on my lap with her head on my chest. It was nice having them around. They always seem to make me feel better. I don't know how I would live without them.
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Hey guys. Just letting you know now I probably won't update for a while so if you read this please don't complain or send me rude messages I will continue the story when I get the chance. I'm a very lazy person. Then again idk why I'm writing this note because there's no reason anyone will be reading it anytime soon. Goodnight my bitches if ur reading this and thanks.

  - A