Divergent (no war)

Hmmmmm....

"YOU NEVERTHELESS MENTIONED ANYTHING ABOUT MEMORY LOSS!!" I scream at the nurse 

"We didn't think she would wake up , we are sorry" she says

I dont have anything to say but I have something to do, Tris won't mind she is never going to mind about me again. 

Their taking her out of hospital today, part of me wants to see part of me really doesn't and I know what part is stronger a lot stronger.

I walk not wanting to reach my destination, but something draws me towards it like I'm a moth and it's a light. I feel like it's my only escape the only way I will ever be happy, not happy I know I will never be happy again I mean it's the only way I won't be sad, I will feel nothing. But that is better than what I'm feeling now.

my hand shakes violently but at the same not moving an inch. I'm breathing but at the same time not breathing at all, im scared but at the same time relieved it will be over soon. 

I reach the edge of the chasm, the metal railing feels colder than it has ever been the crashing waves seem louder than ever before, the spray of water seems stronger than it did last time. Now when I'm about to die, I feel alive...