Five is a crowd

15-"I'm going!"

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What would it feel like to live in utter darkness? As if you were locked in a dark closet? Pain, tears and know one to reach out for? It was horrible, it was tantalizing. "No! No please!"

"Javier wake up!" Aman shook Javier gently. "Come on man it's just a dream." Valeria started screaming from the bed where Aman had put her.

Javier jumped up, he stopped to look around as if he wasn't sure of his surroundings. The bedroom door opened, Agustin and Dylan came in looking worried. The boys recalled Javier having a few nightmares over the past year they have been living together. He never told them what it was about except for that it was something that has been happening since he was little.

"Javi, what's wrong?" Asked Agustin, he came over to sit beside Javier. It's been a long day at the hospital for all of them, perhaps Javier was just over stressed. He was very close to Brooks after all.

Javier looked around at all the boys, he heard Valeria screaming. "Help her Aman!" The boys were a bit put off by Javier's sudden reaction, ever since Valeria has moved in he's been acting stranger.

Aman just looked at him for a moment and went to get Valeria. "Shhh Princess, papa has you." He cradled her close to his chest and she calmed down a bit.

"What happened Javier?" Asked Agustin gently stroking Javier's shoulder. He was sweating and trembling.

"It was just a dream, I want to go back to bed." Said Javier.

"No, you're coming down for some hot cocoa and we can talk about it." Said Agustin a bit forcefully.

"Yeah, and I'll drink some too." Added Dylan with a smile. Agustin and Aman shot him death glares. "Just being a friend." He shrugged.

Javier hesitated but he knew he couldn't get past Agustin. Besides, he made the best hot cocoa Javier has ever had. "Alright." He finally spoke up.

The boys gathered in the kitchen and soon enough the house was filled with a warm sweet smell. Valeria was quiet by now, sucking on one of her toys happily in Aman's arms.

"What did you dream about?" Asked Agustin. He placed a warm mug in front of Javier, it's steam smelling sweet.

"Thank you," Javier whispered.

"Jav, it might really do you some good to tell us." Offered Dylan, he took the mug Agustin handed to him.

Javier looked over at Valeria and gave one of her little hairs a twirl. He didn't think this life was good enough for her, he knew Aman loved her, something that was hard for him to imagine, but it was true. He cared for her and Javier supposed that's all a child needed, was love even if it meant she or he lived what he thought, a strange life. The boys fought a lot and their contracts weren't over on till the first of next year, that was ages away. His train of thought was interrupted by Agustin gently rubbing his back. "Come on Javi, is it, Brooks?" He asked.

"I had a dream too, it wasn't that bad. It was about Brooks though." Told Dylan. Javier's dream wasn't about Brooks, he wished that's all it was.

"Javier, tell us."

Javier looked over at Aman a bit shocked at his caringness. He then took a sip from his mug, a bit of the cream getting on his lips. Agustin chuckled a bit and handed him a napkin. "Guys if you don't mind, I really just want to get back to sleep. Thanks for your help but it was just a dream." He took the napkin, wiped his face, then left. He curled up in his bed drowning himself in the warmth. "I miss you, mama," He whispered. "I miss you." He could feel the tears in his eyes as they wet his pillow. He shut them, hoping his dreams would bring him to a happy place, but he didn't have many of those.