Wallflower

chapter I

        Some days I feel like I live in a blur. Its like a scene from a movie where everything just kinda happens and I can't help but feel that something is out of place. I have no reason to feel the way I do. I guess it all is just part of highschool life.
       What I write to you really happened. Writing has always been an outlet for me. Life hasn't exactly been enjoyable. But I cannot control what happens in this world. I am just here to serve my time. Maybe, just maybe things will be different.
        I live in a small town called Canon City. And when I say small...I don't just mean that there's nothing to do, but most rumors you hear, you find to all be true. I spend the majority of my free time focused on my music. I play guitar. It has helped me cope with some of the many hardships I've had in my lifetime. And for being 16… it's a lot to take in.
         Just a fair warning to you now;some of the things I talk about are not so hot topics. But I would encourage everyone to read this because you might learn a thing or two. And I promise you that you will relate in some way.
      Trust me, I'm no way near close to perfect. But I will learn from my mistakes. That's the thing isn't it? We have a choice. Some fall down a rabbit hole and panic. Others take the time to fall slowly to see what wonders it holds. I don't know where I fall yet. When I was younger, I would definitely panic. But now that I'm older...I think too much. I'm not sure if that's good or bad yet.
         To those who do not know me, my name is Hannah. I have 4 major best friends; Kandi, Ali, Bradley, and Chris. Kandi is a tall beautiful brunette and is always down for an adventure meaning she's a rebel. Kandi and I will spend hours of the night on a mountain, overlook the city and just talk. She means so much to me. I've never have had such a close girl best friend before.
         Ali is the fun one. She has light green eyes with long fawn color hair and is absolutely drop dead gorgeous! She is the humor in my life and is someone I can go to with my problems head on. Her, kandi and I all are a circle of happiness when we are together. They're magical human beings. And I'm so happy I can call them friends.
          And then there's Bradley; the wise one, the Godly one, the one who I spend 12 hours straight just talking on the phone with. I've known Bradley since I was 6 now. He is 1-2 years older than me which makes him 17 almost 18. We grew up in church together. He has always my #1 friend since I can remember.
       He does not live in Canon anymore though. He moved across the country to work for his cousin so he can earn enough money to go to a music school in Greeley and get an internship as a worship leader at a church.
         Like I said, he is a very Godly man and God has blessed him with such amazing musical talent.   
I could fall asleep to the soft vibrato of his voice. Its so light and calm. I've never heard a better voice in the years of me living. But that's not all, he also plays guitar and writes loads of worship music all the time.
        Bradley has been an inspiration throughout my life. And he has helped me overcome so much of my past and is always telling me to be in this moment. God knows where I'd stand if he hadn't come into my life.
           And now it's time for Chris. Chris is a strong, bold, brave, and fearless young man. He is 18 almost 19. He is currently active in the Army, training in basic for infantry. He is the greatest person I have ever met in my entire life! 
        Before he left, he would always come over to play video games with me and we'd catch Pokémon together. We would go to the Gym, Coffee Shops, Parks, Sushi Bars, and Mall. There's not a whole lot to do in Canon so we go to the nearby big cities sometimes.
         Chris is my boyfriend if you haven't figured that out already. We have gone on many adventures and are so excited to see what our future holds so we may have many more. Like Ali, Chris is free-spirited and makes me so ridiculously happy.
        I cannot see him for at least another two months because he will be graduating from basic. He also lives across the country so we write each other love letters since he is not allowed the use of a phone. I think letters are more special because you can keep them forever. I have countless letters I have saved from him and will keep them for as long as long as I live.
           I plan to fly out to see him for graduation. He is so excited. This would be the first time I would ever fly out on my own. He signed a contract that says that after basic, he must serve at least two years of infantry before quitting. And they can arrest him if he does. I have no idea where they will place him yet, I just really hope he is safe.
           Well now you got a little scoop of my life and how these people have impacted me in ways I will never be able to write. This is my first story I have ever written publicly so let me know what you think. Remember, more is yet to come.
        Take what I say to heart because I wish there was someone to help me when I was young so I could ask for advice. I'm a selfless person and would drop everything I'm doing to help someone. I believe that the saddest people try so hard to make others feel happy because they know what its like to be sad and cannot bare to wish that upon somebody else. Let my words guide you, help you, find you.