Unexpected Pleasure •JDB•

thirteen,

"Make sure you take a lot of pictures-ool-and make sure you bring me something back." Stephanie layed on my bed while filing her nails.

"You know. . .to make things go a little faster, you could help me pack my suitcase." I rolled my eyes, rushing to get out of the house so we could leave on time.

"Not my fault you're irresponsible." She lifted herself off the bed and started to pack up my makeup from off my dresser.

"I don't think it's actually hit me that your really married. I feel like your my older sister and not my best friend." She chuckled ar her own joke while my mind couldn't settle on her words.

I was to anxious over many things that roamed my brain. I'm Mrs. Bieber. All my life I prayed for this day but now that I have it, it means absolutely nothing. Even though I wasn't really experienced sexually I would never get the chance to sleep around even if I wanted to. And something is telling me that Justin wouldn't mind cheating on me.

After our vows I felt closer to Justin. He made me feel like a princess the whole night but I knew it wasn't real, and that's what hurt the most.

"I know what you mean. Hey? Can you get my tooth brush out of the bathroom for me?" Once I wax finished packing my clothes I zippered my suit case and sat it on the ground.

"Here you go." In hand was my purple tooth brush and Colgate tooth paste. "You're a life saver, thanks bitch." I gave her a kiss on the cheek and stuffed my tooth paste and brush in the bag of jungle.

"No problemo." She sang and sat back down on the bed. "Can we uh-talk about your vows..." she looked up at me with curious eyes.

Internally I was sighing so loud. I knew exactly what she was going to say, 'did you actually mean it when you said you loved him more then yourself?'

I walked over to my mirror and rubbed my face. "The words were true, the timing wasn't. Our parents gave us our vows but I decided not to use mine. So, I used one of the pages in my diary and mixed it with some stuff that was on my mind. So if your question is if I love Justin as much as I said did? Then the answer is no. It was all a lie." I sniffed my nose feeling drained.

I had been feeling this way all day. I felt like once 'Bieber' became my last name, it took something from me.

"Wow. .thats actually really smart. I actually believed you-you know the fake tears, the dramatic sighs. It was like watching Twighlight."

"I guess being in the school play for a year actually helped." I gave a small smile while leaning against the wall.

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Six years later

I listened to Mia hum to the show on the tv. We waited for Justin to come and pick her up since it was his week to have her.

"Mommy? Do you think daddy will come in the house this time?" She asked, keeping her wide eyes on the tv.

I ran my fingers through her curls while listening to her soft voice. "Probably not princess. Daddy will probably be in the car with one of his friends like last time."

"Oh..." she pouted.

"Think about it this way...if he comes in then that means less time with you and daddy."